well, why I blog[1]

I’ve been trying, and failing, to do some M208 work over the last few of days. No work has happened—I’m too busy at work-work, too knackered-tired and too mentally-unfocused to do more than stare hopelessly at the unit texts. Bad news? Not really—I’ve been here before, many, many times. How do I know this? Because I blog and I can read what I thought then….

Blogging, for me, is akin to keeping a public diary, a diary helps when you hit the lows [or highs]—it’s a comfort to know that you have been in a similar place before. Gives you hope [or pause], and gives you a direct-tunnel into remembering the feelings that you had then. Your own writing is a form of smell/taste—you’re right back there.

Why is it important that it is public?

Because if you’re, potentially, going to splatter your thoughts across the entire ether you think a bit. And when you think, you think about what it is that you are really thinking. True, I sometimes craft a post in an attempt to make it a bit more interesting, or to reinforce a point, but in general what you read here is me. I do this for you, If I was doing this for myself it would be a stream of incoherent babble, I’ve got books and books of that.

The most important person that you’ll ever analyse is yourself. When you do there are obvious temptations to lie; if you analyse yourself in public these temptations are fewer. Why? Because in a certain sense you have to step outside yourself—you create a caricature of yourself [an avatar?] that splits you off from yourself. Despite yourself you’re tempted into relating, mostly, the truth.

I started off trying to say something entirely different here—how my M208 blog had helped me realize where I was going wrong—as you can see I didn’t, which is why I’ve labelled it [1].

Blogging, like forgiving, is for you. The very act of trying to write what it is that you feel/think is important. There are some spin-offs, we’ll talk about those next time…