Been doing stuff. Computer course, shared project, working hard at a nonsense project. Happy.

I found that I wasn't doing what I desired, for too long I've just been coasting along, ticking boxes. I'd forgotten why I needed maths, it was always a tool to an end, so that I could understand stuff like this, not something that I wanted to know; just something I need to know.

I often get like this when I have my computing head on: thrawn. I must be one thing or another mustn't I?

Yeh well, neil, you don't. What is it about you that you don't like? Why this eternal naval gazing? Why can't you be happy?

That has never been something that I wanted.