I seem to have a crazy propensity to leave things to the last minute, i could have all the time in the world and yet i doodle along like a fart in a trance, happy as Larry, right up until the day before, when I'm hit like a cattle prod "wacky wacky hands off snaky" and then I'm in a crazy rush to get stuff done.
At school, the closer i lived, the later i would be, and work, the closer i lived the later i would be "cant get my nut around that one".
Well at least I'm not using and my mental health is stable and if i am honest, they are the important things, its took 46 years to grasp that concept, no thing or no one comes before my sanity and i swear as long as my Daddies dead, i genuinely do not give a sand covered crabs c+@t who it is or what it is, if it affects my mental health, your getting snooped and dropped like your hot.
There are some things about myself that i can not change and i learn to live with, which reflects on what AA abide by and can also be a cattle prod, if i loose my way, referring to the highlighted part.
All in all, today is a good day, i have all i need and those small mercies have just smooched in next to me on the recliner, so I'm blessed, if only for today.
I am not governed by AA, i will accept any model for recovery and remain open minded, to be honest with ya, if you was dressed as a chicken, doing the hokey cokey down the Holloway road, promoting abstinence, i would gladly smooch up behind you and do the hokey cokey with you.
Take care people and be lucky yeah.
The Full Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make things right
If I surrender to His Will;
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forever and ever in the next.
Amen.
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