I have had a truly motivated day! Thought I'd write a quick entry here over a well deserved glass of red.
In the morning I 'worked' and made a decent wage. I say 'worked' because I now work for myself on a million different things, and all of them are really hobbies, and things that I enjoy. But I still have to pay the bills of course, so technically, it is work.
Then I finally made myself finish reading the B3 course text - that's it, I've read it all! It was awesome too, because I thought I had to read both sessions 7 and 8 (about 60 pages) but when I got to my little business plan notebook, I'd already completed all of session 7 during a concussed period. I had absolutely no recollection of having done it. But that goes for a lot of things that I did at that time, not all of them so fruitful! So that put me in a good mood. I whizzed through my notes, and commended myself on my ability to write down words that I was at the time, unable to verbalise. And then I whizzed through session 8 as it was all financial stuff, and astonishingly, all the stuff I learnt in B680 accounting came straight back to me. Hmm... that's weird, that doesn't fit the rule of level 1; B1, level B2; 2 etc. - that's level 3; B6. Well that's a slight dampener to my euphoria but nothing too bad. So that took me no time at all. Then, in a moment of stationary elation I printed off a whole heap of useful stuff and stapled it into sections and ordered it and made everything look organised. I realise of course that I haven't actually achieved much at all, given that most of it was already done without my knowledge... but I was anticipating having to spend two days on something that took only a few hours. So I feel superhuman. Ha!
Got the house to myself too, which is blissful, and can comfortably watch some trash on TV. I don't go out on Friday or Saturday nights as it's far too stressful, so I take it upon myself to enjoy the TV I enjoyed when I was too young to go out, and re-live a simpler time. It's all good.
Prior to that though, I will read a little of my anxiety book, as I am in a good frame of mind not to get entirely irritated with the content. I did have to give myself a bit of a talking to the other day, as I've been wholly negative about the whole thing. However, believe it or not, I used one of the CBT techniques to critique my own negativity. So, although I refuse to change my feelings in terms of my beliefs, I will try at least to only focus on the bits that are beneficial. Which I'm doing and consequently leaves me very little to talk about on the matter. Which is in itself a good thing in some ways!
I got sent an awesome e-mail today, well two actually. One was one of those illusion ones, but with a whole bunch that I hadn't seen before that were really good. And another one was a heap of 'perfectly timed pictures' that were ridiculous or incredible or very, very funny. Maybe that's what started off my day so well!
Get that Friday feeling!!
I have had a truly motivated day! Thought I'd write a quick entry here over a well deserved glass of red.
In the morning I 'worked' and made a decent wage. I say 'worked' because I now work for myself on a million different things, and all of them are really hobbies, and things that I enjoy. But I still have to pay the bills of course, so technically, it is work.
Then I finally made myself finish reading the B3 course text - that's it, I've read it all! It was awesome too, because I thought I had to read both sessions 7 and 8 (about 60 pages) but when I got to my little business plan notebook, I'd already completed all of session 7 during a concussed period. I had absolutely no recollection of having done it. But that goes for a lot of things that I did at that time, not all of them so fruitful! So that put me in a good mood. I whizzed through my notes, and commended myself on my ability to write down words that I was at the time, unable to verbalise. And then I whizzed through session 8 as it was all financial stuff, and astonishingly, all the stuff I learnt in B680 accounting came straight back to me. Hmm... that's weird, that doesn't fit the rule of level 1; B1, level B2; 2 etc. - that's level 3; B6. Well that's a slight dampener to my euphoria but nothing too bad. So that took me no time at all. Then, in a moment of stationary elation I printed off a whole heap of useful stuff and stapled it into sections and ordered it and made everything look organised. I realise of course that I haven't actually achieved much at all, given that most of it was already done without my knowledge... but I was anticipating having to spend two days on something that took only a few hours. So I feel superhuman. Ha!
Got the house to myself too, which is blissful, and can comfortably watch some trash on TV. I don't go out on Friday or Saturday nights as it's far too stressful, so I take it upon myself to enjoy the TV I enjoyed when I was too young to go out, and re-live a simpler time. It's all good.
Prior to that though, I will read a little of my anxiety book, as I am in a good frame of mind not to get entirely irritated with the content. I did have to give myself a bit of a talking to the other day, as I've been wholly negative about the whole thing. However, believe it or not, I used one of the CBT techniques to critique my own negativity. So, although I refuse to change my feelings in terms of my beliefs, I will try at least to only focus on the bits that are beneficial. Which I'm doing and consequently leaves me very little to talk about on the matter. Which is in itself a good thing in some ways!
I got sent an awesome e-mail today, well two actually. One was one of those illusion ones, but with a whole bunch that I hadn't seen before that were really good. And another one was a heap of 'perfectly timed pictures' that were ridiculous or incredible or very, very funny. Maybe that's what started off my day so well!