Last night marked a very bad point in my life. Luckily, despite going online whilst very drunk, my ramblings don't seem to be too terrible, and it's hard to say for sure, but it appears I haven't abused anyone on facebook. It is rare for me to get into a state like that. There is one outcome that I'm not pleased with though. I returned to my old days of drunk shopping.
We watched psychoville. What a great show. The trouble is, it does send me to a strange mental place. At one point there was a funeral for a clown. Lots of clowns turned up. Lots of them had those clown tears drawn on their faces. It entered my brain that they all looked amazing, and I would like to be a clown. This is an example of one of the reasons that I shouldn't drink, ever. In fact, I can quote directly from my facebook status in the early hours of this morning...
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Hi Rosie,
When I first clicked on the link, the outfit/image made me laugh out aloud! Sorry!
There is that saying; that physical bruises and wounds heal relatively quickly but psychological and emotional scars take longer.
You come across as an extremely strong-minded, strong-hearted person, please don't let yourself go down a road where it leads to nothing but self-destruction.
"Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit."
You come across as someone who knows how to 'dig in': Dig in, you're not going to let this experience make your life worse, rather you will use this adversity as a reason to help make your life better. You only get one chance to live this particular year of your life...
All the best, Jameela.
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I think we're all hard to live with in one way or another...
Love your blogs, Rosie. I read your post on 26 April and laughed my socks off, but was really moved by yesterday's post. You've clearly been through a lot. It's kind of comforting to think that there's a faceless community of OU people out there that we'll probably never meet, but who nevertheless read how we're feeling right now, and really care. Keep posting - we'll keep caring
Thanks guys
It added to my happiness to read your posts. Some days just don't work out at all how I would wish them to! But luckily others do.
It is nice that even never meeting there's this support network. I'm glad I discovered blogging. It's my virtual version of sitting under a big oak tree with a group of friends, and chatting about student life. I learn a lot from other people's blogs, and get a little education in subjects I haven't ever thought to study, occasionally!
Anyway, thanks, your comments are much appreciated