First of all I lost contact with my mother. Then my step-dad found my wordpress blog. I was writing a slightly disturbing post about my mother and he posted a comment to say he knew what I went through. I literally nearly fell off my stool. I haven't heard from him since I was eight. Two days later I got an e-mail from my half sister, who I have never met, and then from my biological father, who I have seen once, but also never met. It turns out they all want to meet me and have been looking for me on and off for my whole life, contrary to what I was told. So I had a total meltdown and spent the last two days e-mailing back and forth and crying and being sick and finding out stuff that I thought might just break my heart for good. I met my step-father and he wants to play that role in my life again. He told me some disturbing truths as well. And then today I woke up and decided enough was enough and am forcing myself normal again. I meet my biological father on Friday.
Until then, I have to stop wallowing in pain and start my studying! Or try to! It's pretty hard to concentrate on anything as my mind has basically exploded!
Oh my god Rosie, you've made my tears well up, you must be so brave well done so far. Well then it's no wonder that you've been through it I really do wish you well and I really, really hope it works out for you and you always make me laugh too!
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Have taken up your challenge to poets. See your posting where you set the challenge.New comment
If you miss the title Rosie, that just sounds like an invitation!!!New comment
Ha ha, that's very good. The second line is genius!New comment
The poem or the comment?New comment
The poem!
And what sounds like an invitation?
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What you've actually posted, your link.New comment
I'm a bit slow on the uptake; I apologise. Been through the mill these past few days!New comment
Really, whats happened?
I saw that you were going to meet your estranged step-dad; how did that go?
I take it it's not an invitation then?
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I forget that you can't access my links.
Summary...
First of all I lost contact with my mother. Then my step-dad found my wordpress blog. I was writing a slightly disturbing post about my mother and he posted a comment to say he knew what I went through. I literally nearly fell off my stool. I haven't heard from him since I was eight. Two days later I got an e-mail from my half sister, who I have never met, and then from my biological father, who I have seen once, but also never met. It turns out they all want to meet me and have been looking for me on and off for my whole life, contrary to what I was told. So I had a total meltdown and spent the last two days e-mailing back and forth and crying and being sick and finding out stuff that I thought might just break my heart for good. I met my step-father and he wants to play that role in my life again. He told me some disturbing truths as well. And then today I woke up and decided enough was enough and am forcing myself normal again. I meet my biological father on Friday.
Until then, I have to stop wallowing in pain and start my studying! Or try to! It's pretty hard to concentrate on anything as my mind has basically exploded!
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Oh my god Rosie, you've made my tears well up, you must be so brave well done so far. Well then it's no wonder that you've been through it I really do wish you well and I really, really hope it works out for you and you always make me laugh too!New comment
Ha ha, well if that made you well-up, then steer well clear of the wordpress blog. There have been many many tears over there!
I used "well" in three different ways back there.
Well well well!
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Haven't caught up with your blog for a while (been going through own 'stuff'!),
you 'stuff' sounds awful like you been through the wringer too, glad you going to get a happy ending, all the best for Friday x.
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Thanks Wren... it can only get better right!! Sheesh.
I hope things get good for you too
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Is that a semi colon
and an open bracket mouth
I see on your face today?
An unfolding smile, inside and out
and so determined to stay.
Salud, Gillian
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Ha, nice poem.
I've a closed bracket mouth though.
Unless I'm smiling from the left I guess. (:
Actually I'm just too tired to be happy or sad!
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Well good luck Rosie, for what it's worth, my best wishes go with you.New comment
Wow, I leave you for a few days and look what happens, kidding, big hugs .xx
Knowing others is intelligence;
knowing yourself is true wisdom.
Mastering others is strength;
mastering yourself is true power.
-Lao-Tzu
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Thank you, both.
Ha ha, S, you made me smile!
I should never be left alone!
Al goes to bed nervous at the moment, wondering what on Earth I will have done during the night when he wakes!