Edited by Sarah Louise North, Sunday, 1 Sept 2024, 15:21
Hello,
It's been 55 days since I last wrote. First, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
I will stop saying when I will write because I don't do it, so I will write a post when I do.
I do have New Year Resolutions, but since they are more a to-do list than anything else, I will not reveal them because, let's face it, do we stick to our resolutions? Of course, we don't. We are enthusiastic about doing it but don't stick to them. Very few people do, and well done if you are. I can't, and that's the truth.
January has passed; what I would like to do is try to write a blog post at least once a month and put a little something on here. That is what I think, and I don't believe that is a wrong goal. I can at least try and stick to that.
What has happened in 55 days? I have been made permanent at work but don't think I am doing well. I am at least trying to improve. I had a great Christmas, and my New Year was me at home, but that is the same every year. People tend to be like Aahh What people don't understand is that I am okay being at home. I live with my dad, sister and my daughter. My daughter went out; my sister stayed in this year, and most years, she goes out. Dad never goes out on New Year as he doesn't celebrate it, and I don't go out.
I went to lunch with Susan and Aggie, and that felt rushed. I am unsure if that is because they had other plans, but it did feel like they didn't want to be there. I didn't even know they had to go. I went to the bathroom and came back & they told me they had to go. It felt like they said that because they didn't want to stay. I haven't heard from them since, wishing them a Happy New Year. They have their life, and I have my existence. I don't think this year has started very well for me. I had two huge assessments that were paid for me by my employer. I had an ADHD assessment and an ASD assessment. It turns out that I have both. ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder) and ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). I prefer saying I'm autistic. It doesn't matter where you are on the spectrum; if you are autistic, then you are autistic. Who says to someone else, so you're autistic? Where are you on the spectrum? I bet I'm higher than you. Who cares where you are?
I am also a bit behind in my studies. I have almost caught up, which is good, but I hate being behind. I am in the poetry section and wouldn't say I like poetry. I know it is meant to make you a better writer, but I wouldn't say I like it. Or is it I don't understand it? I think it is because I don't understand it. If you are a songwriter, I guess poetry would be a course for you; still, for someone like me who has no idea how it works and how to set things out, I try to shy away from that because it is hard for me. If something is hard and I don't understand it, I don't want to study it. I want to turn 2024 around and make it an OK year. I can get through the year and not have so much going on that I want to cry and put my head under the covers, wishing I was somewhere else. I keep saying I must write a great book, and everyone says the same. I will write a book, and I keep on going because I know people who have written books. I went to Dublin with these people, and they have become New Your Times Best Selling Authors, so why can't I? It's not an unattainable goal to have.
Saturday 17/02/2024
Hello,
It's been 55 days since I last wrote. First, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
I will stop saying when I will write because I don't do it, so I will write a post when I do.
I do have New Year Resolutions, but since they are more a to-do list than anything else, I will not reveal them because, let's face it, do we stick to our resolutions? Of course, we don't. We are enthusiastic about doing it but don't stick to them. Very few people do, and well done if you are. I can't, and that's the truth.
January has passed; what I would like to do is try to write a blog post at least once a month and put a little something on here. That is what I think, and I don't believe that is a wrong goal. I can at least try and stick to that.
What has happened in 55 days? I have been made permanent at work but don't think I am doing well. I am at least trying to improve. I had a great Christmas, and my New Year was me at home, but that is the same every year. People tend to be like Aahh
What people don't understand is that I am okay being at home. I live with my dad, sister and my daughter. My daughter went out; my sister stayed in this year, and most years, she goes out. Dad never goes out on New Year as he doesn't celebrate it, and I don't go out.
I went to lunch with Susan and Aggie, and that felt rushed. I am unsure if that is because they had other plans, but it did feel like they didn't want to be there. I didn't even know they had to go. I went to the bathroom and came back & they told me they had to go. It felt like they said that because they didn't want to stay. I haven't heard from them since, wishing them a Happy New Year. They have their life, and I have my existence. I don't think this year has started very well for me. I had two huge assessments that were paid for me by my employer. I had an ADHD assessment and an ASD assessment. It turns out that I have both. ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder) and ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). I prefer saying I'm autistic. It doesn't matter where you are on the spectrum; if you are autistic, then you are autistic. Who says to someone else, so you're autistic? Where are you on the spectrum? I bet I'm higher than you. Who cares where you are?
I am also a bit behind in my studies. I have almost caught up, which is good, but I hate being behind. I am in the poetry section and wouldn't say I like poetry. I know it is meant to make you a better writer, but I wouldn't say I like it. Or is it I don't understand it? I think it is because I don't understand it. If you are a songwriter, I guess poetry would be a course for you; still, for someone like me who has no idea how it works and how to set things out, I try to shy away from that because it is hard for me. If something is hard and I don't understand it, I don't want to study it. I want to turn 2024 around and make it an OK year. I can get through the year and not have so much going on that I want to cry and put my head under the covers, wishing I was somewhere else. I keep saying I must write a great book, and everyone says the same. I will write a book, and I keep on going because I know people who have written books. I went to Dublin with these people, and they have become New Your Times Best Selling Authors, so why can't I? It's not an unattainable goal to have.