I did it, I finished my maths lesson and now I'm back on here to talk a little bit about me, what I am doing, and why I am doing it.
My name is Evan, I'm 27 and I live in south Wales. My course I am doing is Natural Sciences with an Astronomy and Planetary science pathway. I chose this because I have always loved the night sky and the stars, and even when everything else in life has been chaotic and unstable, the moon and the stars are the same guys every night you know? Every night the same friends come out and you can see their cycles and this really brought me a lot of comfort in moments of stress in my life.
The comfort the stars gives me is something I struggle to out down into words, I am neurodivergent and I have a mental health condition called EUPD which stands for Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, which is an absolutely horrific name for a condition where a persons mind is already full of negative self talk, but I refuse to let something as limited as language to describe myself because the past year I have realised I am much more than my labels, so I don't spend much time worrying about labels or what other people have to say about me.
In December 2023 I was very suicidal and something saved my life that night and since that night I have spend the past year trying to get my life back on track because there is something out there that loves me more than I do and I believe I am supposed to be here and I'm not just a fluke of nature, I truly believe human beings are here in the universe for a reason and were not just random like I originally thought!
This leads me onto why I am studying this course! I am studying with the Open university for a few reasons, firstly my mental health can make it difficult to study conventionally, I often need to study late at night, and sometimes I can't study for a week due to my mental health, and the OU gives me the freedom to miss a week and be able to catch up with study and not miss any content because it is self paced, so that is one big reason why I chose the OU. Another reason is I am not a fan of waking up early and if I had to get up for a 9am lecture every day I'd never complete my course.
Why did I choose my Natural Sciences (Astronomy and Planetary Science)? Truth is I have no idea where life I going to take me and in 6 years jobs may exist that don't right now, so I don't want to be locked into a specific job title or anything like that because life is so dynamic and fluid. I currently work one shift a week in McDonalds, I see it as my community service because I struggle with conventional jobs and seeing it as a job, so I like to see it as community service lighting up peoples days because if I see it as work for some reason my body refuses to do it and they love me there, I do have to say, customers love me!
I want my life to be meaningful and Natural Sciences opens up so many options! I could go into the space sector if I wanted to but right now I am more concerned with our own gorgeous planet, so I am thinking about what I could do to help climate change, carbon capture possibly, something that really gets me going is space trash!! what are we going to do about that because if we carry on the way we are and keep sending up rockets and satellites without returning the debris to Earth to be recycled or disposed of is incredibly irresponsible!! But this course gives me options to do something that is in alignment with what I love and what I want to achieve! I can't wait to see where this course takes me!
Anyway that was a little bit, or a lot, about me and how I'm feeling right now, where my head is at!
My world
I did it, I finished my maths lesson and now I'm back on here to talk a little bit about me, what I am doing, and why I am doing it.
My name is Evan, I'm 27 and I live in south Wales. My course I am doing is Natural Sciences with an Astronomy and Planetary science pathway. I chose this because I have always loved the night sky and the stars, and even when everything else in life has been chaotic and unstable, the moon and the stars are the same guys every night you know? Every night the same friends come out and you can see their cycles and this really brought me a lot of comfort in moments of stress in my life.
The comfort the stars gives me is something I struggle to out down into words, I am neurodivergent and I have a mental health condition called EUPD which stands for Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, which is an absolutely horrific name for a condition where a persons mind is already full of negative self talk, but I refuse to let something as limited as language to describe myself because the past year I have realised I am much more than my labels, so I don't spend much time worrying about labels or what other people have to say about me.
In December 2023 I was very suicidal and something saved my life that night and since that night I have spend the past year trying to get my life back on track because there is something out there that loves me more than I do and I believe I am supposed to be here and I'm not just a fluke of nature, I truly believe human beings are here in the universe for a reason and were not just random like I originally thought!
This leads me onto why I am studying this course! I am studying with the Open university for a few reasons, firstly my mental health can make it difficult to study conventionally, I often need to study late at night, and sometimes I can't study for a week due to my mental health, and the OU gives me the freedom to miss a week and be able to catch up with study and not miss any content because it is self paced, so that is one big reason why I chose the OU. Another reason is I am not a fan of waking up early and if I had to get up for a 9am lecture every day I'd never complete my course.
Why did I choose my Natural Sciences (Astronomy and Planetary Science)? Truth is I have no idea where life I going to take me and in 6 years jobs may exist that don't right now, so I don't want to be locked into a specific job title or anything like that because life is so dynamic and fluid. I currently work one shift a week in McDonalds, I see it as my community service because I struggle with conventional jobs and seeing it as a job, so I like to see it as community service lighting up peoples days because if I see it as work for some reason my body refuses to do it and they love me there, I do have to say, customers love me!
I want my life to be meaningful and Natural Sciences opens up so many options! I could go into the space sector if I wanted to but right now I am more concerned with our own gorgeous planet, so I am thinking about what I could do to help climate change, carbon capture possibly, something that really gets me going is space trash!! what are we going to do about that because if we carry on the way we are and keep sending up rockets and satellites without returning the debris to Earth to be recycled or disposed of is incredibly irresponsible!! But this course gives me options to do something that is in alignment with what I love and what I want to achieve! I can't wait to see where this course takes me!
Anyway that was a little bit, or a lot, about me and how I'm feeling right now, where my head is at!