I seem to have a problem with my work computer, it isn't behaving itself. Some security update? I'm too tired to chase it down tonight. I may even be doing something stupid.
I should be doing my maths TMA, the deadline for which is getting uncomfortably close. I sense a weekend of sweat, horror, red bull-shakes and despair.
I'm not too worried though, most of the TMA is just work; I don't think that I need to understand anything very much.
On the plus side the M256 team project is looking good. There's a great group of people on board, I think that we have a reasonable, and achievable plan and I'm fairly confident that I can project manage this.
I can't believe how much I've missed computing. Still there was a point last week when I almost chucked it all in. Pull the rip-chord, give up, stop striving. I don't need, "the piece of paper", I've probably gotten everything that I really need from the OU. I could stop. I can't really.
This is now in my blood. I can't imagine not having an exam to study for, a TMA to do. I could settle back into a comfortable uselessness, or a selfish bliss. I don't want that. I would hate myself.
I'm tired, angry, scared and entranced. I ramble and moan but I have a sense of my own sharpness. The OU taught me that. I'm not very clever but what you can always expect from me, now, is that I'll think. You'll always get considered thought out of me. Rubbish as that may be.
I may be wrong about the subject-matter to-hand but if you get into an argument with me you may be assured that I'm not trying winding you up. I have genuine concerns, I want to understand.
And I want to help you understand too.
Knowledge without insight isn't much use and knowledge without insight and understanding is even more useless.
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Yeah the only thing that will stop me being an OU student in some form or other is
a) If Scotland decides to make the fees the same as England
b) The onset of senility or dementia
It's just in the blood as you say. The Exams and or final assesment are just like the cup final. Indeed in Edinburgh they are held in a Football Stadium
All the best mate
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I spend so much time feeling guilty coz my nose isn't in a book or fretting because I could be studying. But I'm an OU addict and need my study fix.New comment
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Thanks Chris and Cathy. I knew that you'd understand, that's why this is such a great place; without it I'd never have met you two.
I'm busy trying to get a team project off the ground for m256, and I have to admit that I'm loving it. This was what I was built for and however many lows there are, the highs make it all worthwhile.
If you want to leave this place you probably don't belong.
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