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In any game, worth playing, that I've ever played there is a moment when the big think is needed. Indeed, when it comes to chess and the maybe protegee it's a vital tell—do they have it when the game is still in the balance, or after it has been lost?

I think that, OU-wise, the time has come for me to have my big think.

Paint it how you may, my third-level maths performance has been sub-woeful. Why? I think it comes down to simple feckless idleness on my part.

I understand maths when I'm doing it, it's just that I can't seem to do it under any type of pressure. I panic and flap, my mind goes into underdrive, I get basic things wrong.

Over the last few days my exam performance has been unravelling in my head; that question about the order of a centre of a group? Oops missed out an order, oops it was the order of the quotient group that mattered, oops, of course centres are normal [as they are Abelian]. Oops, five marks become one.

So should I change my degree? Not sure that's possible, what with all the change that's going on around here and do I want to? I didn't start out to do this because I need a degree, good or otherwise, this is me in piss-around mode. The problem baldly stated is: I assumed that I was cleverer than I am.

So we continue along the planned route.

And after we have walked that part of life?

Firstly we stop referring to me as we and we finish that bloody solitaire project that has been hanging around inside your head for so many years...

But I've been playing a wee bit of online Go...

I'm a basket case.