Personal Blogs

The management at my workplace recently announced the formation of a discussion forum. They decided to make me a part of team. When I learnt about this news, I was completely shocked and confused because I felt that I was not the suitable member for this forum. During the last 6 years, I was never given such a position, and to be honest, I always fear to take part in such forums. My head officers told me that they trust my skills and capabilities, but I had fears of losing rapport if underperform! 

The management asked me two weeks ago to prepare a presentation. The very same week, I had undergone a medical issue. I was not mentally prepared to complete this task in time. I decided to quit this task, but one of my colleagues, who also happened to be the part of this forum encouraged me and advised me to keep faith in God. She made me realize how lucky I am to get this golden opportunity to prove my skills and talent in front of a wider audience. I started recalling about last year when I went abroad as a visiting academic scholar and received lots of appreciation from the international audience. I also recalled, how I cope out of distress and perform excellently during the last module, despite fractured hand. I took a sigh of relief and prepared a presentation. Recently I delivered a presentation and received lots of appreciation.

 I am aware that I have many fears in life. I lack confidence because of some past bitter experiences in life. I need to work on building up my confidence.