Day two of sobriety started with my first meeting, it was so good to say nothing to just listen instead of repeating the same old positive affirmation stuff that I am always so good at giving but on this occasion not so good at acting upon myself. It may sound bizarre but I get sick of people telling me that I bring so much to the group and how so many people benefit from my input, I want to be the person who benefits I want some one like me in the group and I have come to the conclusion I will only find that person if I shut up and listen. How can I really learn if I'm talking, surely i am just repeating the same old junk I've said million times. I'm so happy that I chose to start studying real early and have my first TMA all sewn up, I dont think I could of coped had i started at the normal time and then relapsed the pressure of falling behind and trying to catch up under pressure could of lead to me pressing the f@+! it button. Well I've slipped I've acted on it, I have to learn from it and move on before it causes more damage than it needs too. I must count my blessings and show gratitude so my studies do not get affected negatively any more than need be.
Day 17 of OU studies.
Day two of sobriety started with my first meeting, it was so good to say nothing to just listen instead of repeating the same old positive affirmation stuff that I am always so good at giving but on this occasion not so good at acting upon myself. It may sound bizarre but I get sick of people telling me that I bring so much to the group and how so many people benefit from my input, I want to be the person who benefits I want some one like me in the group and I have come to the conclusion I will only find that person if I shut up and listen. How can I really learn if I'm talking, surely i am just repeating the same old junk I've said million times. I'm so happy that I chose to start studying real early and have my first TMA all sewn up, I dont think I could of coped had i started at the normal time and then relapsed the pressure of falling behind and trying to catch up under pressure could of lead to me pressing the f@+! it button. Well I've slipped I've acted on it, I have to learn from it and move on before it causes more damage than it needs too. I must count my blessings and show gratitude so my studies do not get affected negatively any more than need be.
WWG1WGA
(Where We Go One All We Go All)