Edited by Casper Smith, Wednesday, 27 Jan 2021, 06:40
Another day of doing nothing, although i am starting to believe that this maybe turning in to depression, as opposed to me choosing to take time out, for me there is a fine line between avoiding and distracting and i have always struggled to distinguish the two. I would like to feel that the emotional drain of my family has wiped me out and that isolation and solace with lots of bed rest, is actually what is happening, its hard to say for sure as time, thoughts, feelings and coping mechanism's change as i do. As time goes by i learn more about myself and the evolution of my mental health is constantly is question, as there are changes in these too. I mean i feel laidback and Lethargic, which isn't a bad thing right? I dont want to jump from one extreme to another, as i can tend to do that, for example; i have just had my TMA results back, the score was lower than my last TMA and if i am honest, i am not bothered, am i hinding behind "there is much worse going on in the world" or am i giving in? I genuinely feel that no thing is more important than my mental health, not my Mother, not the OU not any one or any thing, I'm going to lay back and take it easy, as writing this blog and saying things in my head while typing has helped to understand the issue that i am talking about. This is why i have a blog, for self expression and the freedom to talk about how i think and feel. From day 1-116 of OU studies, this is the first time and the longest time that i have sustained expressing myself though writing, this really is a whole knew way of learning about myself and one that is helping me to understand the process.
Day 116 of OU studies
I would like to feel that the emotional drain of my family has wiped me out and that isolation and solace with lots of bed rest, is actually what is happening, its hard to say for sure as time, thoughts, feelings and coping mechanism's change as i do. As time goes by i learn more about myself and the evolution of my mental health is constantly is question, as there are changes in these too.
I mean i feel laidback and Lethargic, which isn't a bad thing right? I dont want to jump from one extreme to another, as i can tend to do that, for example; i have just had my TMA results back, the score was lower than my last TMA and if i am honest, i am not bothered, am i hinding behind "there is much worse going on in the world" or am i giving in?
I genuinely feel that no thing is more important than my mental health, not my Mother, not the OU not any one or any thing, I'm going to lay back and take it easy, as writing this blog and saying things in my head while typing has helped to understand the issue that i am talking about.
This is why i have a blog, for self expression and the freedom to talk about how i think and feel.
From day 1-116 of OU studies, this is the first time and the longest time that i have sustained expressing myself though writing, this really is a whole knew way of learning about myself and one that is helping me to understand the process.
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