Right then, the decision has been made to focus on the now, forget what's been, forget what's coming and live in this moment, as i feel if i dont the ability to get lost in my head will become a lot easier.
As it stands at this moment life is good, everything is manageable all appointments are logged and clearly marked out so i can forget about them, i have been letting my mind get cluttered with thoughts that are only proving to be a hindrance.
I have to stop being hard on myself and accept the fact that, even though i do not support or believe in the state of the world at the moment, it is indeed happening and there is no thing that i can do about it. I can not work so dont stress and put pressure on my self for being lazy, i am shielded as i care for my mother, so dont put pressure on myself because i am limited to where i go.
I, like so many others have a lot of time on my hands and very little to do to fill it, so if i lay in or if i stay up late, dont put pressure on myself as thats the way life is at the moment. The situation is bigger than me, bigger than my opinion, thoughts and feelings, so i shall allow it to be what it is and thank for my small mercies and for the good in my life.
I have a telephone tutorial soon which is good as i will get a chance to speak as opposed to communicating by email, i am getting use to the new idea of expressing and communicating by written word and if i am honest i have always found it easier to take instruction by word of mouth as opposed to written word, although i understand times have changed and i have to have to change with them.
I have made a decision to only study the information sources required for TMA04, so i will find out on the TMA04 feedback whether that was the right decision or not, as it stands right now, it feels like the right thing to do. Being a depressive recluse is far different from being told "you cant go out" at least back then i felt like a had dome power over my interaction with the world, like so many others that choice has been taken away.
Im doing it again, drifting out of the moment, so on that note, i will give my head a wobble and regain focus.
Day 117 of OU studies
Right then, the decision has been made to focus on the now, forget what's been, forget what's coming and live in this moment, as i feel if i dont the ability to get lost in my head will become a lot easier.
As it stands at this moment life is good, everything is manageable all appointments are logged and clearly marked out so i can forget about them, i have been letting my mind get cluttered with thoughts that are only proving to be a hindrance.
I have to stop being hard on myself and accept the fact that, even though i do not support or believe in the state of the world at the moment, it is indeed happening and there is no thing that i can do about it. I can not work so dont stress and put pressure on my self for being lazy, i am shielded as i care for my mother, so dont put pressure on myself because i am limited to where i go.
I, like so many others have a lot of time on my hands and very little to do to fill it, so if i lay in or if i stay up late, dont put pressure on myself as thats the way life is at the moment. The situation is bigger than me, bigger than my opinion, thoughts and feelings, so i shall allow it to be what it is and thank for my small mercies and for the good in my life.
I have a telephone tutorial soon which is good as i will get a chance to speak as opposed to communicating by email, i am getting use to the new idea of expressing and communicating by written word and if i am honest i have always found it easier to take instruction by word of mouth as opposed to written word, although i understand times have changed and i have to have to change with them.
I have made a decision to only study the information sources required for TMA04, so i will find out on the TMA04 feedback whether that was the right decision or not, as it stands right now, it feels like the right thing to do. Being a depressive recluse is far different from being told "you cant go out" at least back then i felt like a had dome power over my interaction with the world, like so many others that choice has been taken away.
Im doing it again, drifting out of the moment, so on that note, i will give my head a wobble and regain focus.
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