My after care assessment with my psychiatrist did not go as planned, well why would it? I was fully intrenched in the drams triangle, playing my part as the victim, what hammered it home, was when the bIo/Psycho.Sociel intervention manager, of a substance missus charity that i attend 'who has become my unwritten support worker' echoed the sentiments of the psychiatrist.
I have become accustomed to having conversations with trained professionals who offer conversations of understanding, self development and self realisation in terms of psychology. psychotherapy and CBT/DBT, so much so that i struggle to have a conversation or relate to anyone unless its a conversation of that manner, or what i deem to be substantial, i have never been one for idol gossip or conversations relating to tv shows, films, singers, politicians or what the papers say.
When it comes to friends i believe in quality not quantity, to have one, two or maybe three friends that can converse with me about self realisation or self development, or the simple fundamentals of life, means so much more to me, as opposed to being a member of some social media site that offers hundreds and thousands of virtual strangers who converse repeatedly over the same, over complicating subjects, with no final resolution of things, that will make no difference to society or the understanding of one self or indeed another.
To be in a position like this, leaves so much room for silence and the freedom to witness what is happening, right here, right now and be apart of the reality of now, as feeling anxious about the future or depressed about the past takes me out of living in the reality of the present moment.
As i see the importance of knowing and understanding one self and giving one self the validation we feel we need, from internal sources, such as self realisation, that will dictate our self belief system. I believe this to be so much more productive and important, as opposed to the reliance on a false economy, in the shape of thumbs up and smiley faces from hundreds maybe thousands of virtual strangers that we barely know, which is trying to fill the void.
Can we love another? if we dont love ourselves. Can we trust another? if we dont trust ourselves, And can we really know another? If we dont know ourselves.
Day 129 of OU studies
My after care assessment with my psychiatrist did not go as planned, well why would it? I was fully intrenched in the drams triangle, playing my part as the victim, what hammered it home, was when the bIo/Psycho.Sociel intervention manager, of a substance missus charity that i attend 'who has become my unwritten support worker' echoed the sentiments of the psychiatrist.
I have become accustomed to having conversations with trained professionals who offer conversations of understanding, self development and self realisation in terms of psychology. psychotherapy and CBT/DBT, so much so that i struggle to have a conversation or relate to anyone unless its a conversation of that manner, or what i deem to be substantial, i have never been one for idol gossip or conversations relating to tv shows, films, singers, politicians or what the papers say.
When it comes to friends i believe in quality not quantity, to have one, two or maybe three friends that can converse with me about self realisation or self development, or the simple fundamentals of life, means so much more to me, as opposed to being a member of some social media site that offers hundreds and thousands of virtual strangers who converse repeatedly over the same, over complicating subjects, with no final resolution of things, that will make no difference to society or the understanding of one self or indeed another.
To be in a position like this, leaves so much room for silence and the freedom to witness what is happening, right here, right now and be apart of the reality of now, as feeling anxious about the future or depressed about the past takes me out of living in the reality of the present moment.
As i see the importance of knowing and understanding one self and giving one self the validation we feel we need, from internal sources, such as self realisation, that will dictate our self belief system. I believe this to be so much more productive and important, as opposed to the reliance on a false economy, in the shape of thumbs up and smiley faces from hundreds maybe thousands of virtual strangers that we barely know, which is trying to fill the void.
Can we love another? if we dont love ourselves. Can we trust another? if we dont trust ourselves, And can we really know another? If we dont know ourselves.
.WWG1WGA