Edited by Casper Smith, Thursday, 4 Mar 2021, 04:39
The last two days have been very challenging, i am coming to terms with the fact that certain family member are having a negative impact on my mental state, the hard thing about it is that one of those people are my Mother, the very same person who has just told me she needs me and the same person who has adopted me has her live in 24/7 career for the last 12 months.
The struggles of my mental health are worsened due to the fact that i am not allowed to talk about how i feel, when i am asked if i am alright, i am shut down when i start to answer and when it come to any emotional issues i am ignored, shut down and become someone who endures being tutted at and the rolling of the eyes.
Although i am still expected to do everything for my Mother, even though my Mother is capable of so much more than she allows her self to, it literally comes down to, as long as my Mum gets what she wants then nothing else matters.
During this lockdown i have come to see a different side to My Mother and brother and i really do not like this side of them, although it has been easier for me to come to the conclusion that i really need to cut them from my life, as my mental health comes first, as i do not benefit much from my relationship with them, in anything i loose.
Day 139 of OU studies
The last two days have been very challenging, i am coming to terms with the fact that certain family member are having a negative impact on my mental state, the hard thing about it is that one of those people are my Mother, the very same person who has just told me she needs me and the same person who has adopted me has her live in 24/7 career for the last 12 months.
The struggles of my mental health are worsened due to the fact that i am not allowed to talk about how i feel, when i am asked if i am alright, i am shut down when i start to answer and when it come to any emotional issues i am ignored, shut down and become someone who endures being tutted at and the rolling of the eyes.
Although i am still expected to do everything for my Mother, even though my Mother is capable of so much more than she allows her self to, it literally comes down to, as long as my Mum gets what she wants then nothing else matters.
During this lockdown i have come to see a different side to My Mother and brother and i really do not like this side of them, although it has been easier for me to come to the conclusion that i really need to cut them from my life, as my mental health comes first, as i do not benefit much from my relationship with them, in anything i loose.
It's time i start winning.
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