Edited by Casper Smith, Monday, 22 Feb 2021, 14:11
Well, i have managed to tell my brother that i am no longer able to get from him what i need in order to make me feel comfortable having a relationship with him, if i am honest, i never said it quite as polite, i did swear and it was not as ordered as i would of liked but nether the less i managed to get my point of view across to him. I know i owe him nothing but i felt more comfortable letting him know my decision and why, i felt it only fair.
He came back at me with a comment that was set to plant a seed in my mind for future dwelling, as can be the spiteful nature of my family, up until a certain point, myself included, anyway, i managed to get some clarification from my Uncle about said seed that my brother planted and he put my mind at ease.
Now, with that issue said and done and a point in the right direction from a virtual acquaintance yesterday, i feel my mental health is a t a stable point, my tutor was kind enough to give me an extension on TMA04 and as for now i feel i have a fair crack of the whip to be getting on with.
I know that this all sounds quite trivial to the readers, as for me being in this position, it is not often i go through a mental episode live and direct and get to manage it with out sabotaging myself, plans, goals and dreams in the process and causing minimal damage to myself and those unfortunate enough to care for me at the time.
I am able to express myself on a public platform, with out any fear of any kind and i am very grateful for that, the journey continues for self management and the apologies are there for those i have offended along the way, the OU, academia, diaries, journals, blogs, public speaking about private matters, communicating in written form are all brand new concepts for me, i want to learn a new, i am willing and able to learn a new, and i will not give into the old, thank you all those who put up with my rants, forgive me for all those i have offended, and thank you to those who have helped me.
I feel massively blessed to be allowed this chance to help me start over so, DSA, SFE, OU, Ergonomics, students and tutors, thank you all for this opportunity.
Day 143 of OU studies
Well, i have managed to tell my brother that i am no longer able to get from him what i need in order to make me feel comfortable having a relationship with him, if i am honest, i never said it quite as polite, i did swear and it was not as ordered as i would of liked but nether the less i managed to get my point of view across to him. I know i owe him nothing but i felt more comfortable letting him know my decision and why, i felt it only fair.
He came back at me with a comment that was set to plant a seed in my mind for future dwelling, as can be the spiteful nature of my family, up until a certain point, myself included, anyway, i managed to get some clarification from my Uncle about said seed that my brother planted and he put my mind at ease.
Now, with that issue said and done and a point in the right direction from a virtual acquaintance yesterday, i feel my mental health is a t a stable point, my tutor was kind enough to give me an extension on TMA04 and as for now i feel i have a fair crack of the whip to be getting on with.
I know that this all sounds quite trivial to the readers, as for me being in this position, it is not often i go through a mental episode live and direct and get to manage it with out sabotaging myself, plans, goals and dreams in the process and causing minimal damage to myself and those unfortunate enough to care for me at the time.
I am able to express myself on a public platform, with out any fear of any kind and i am very grateful for that, the journey continues for self management and the apologies are there for those i have offended along the way, the OU, academia, diaries, journals, blogs, public speaking about private matters, communicating in written form are all brand new concepts for me, i want to learn a new, i am willing and able to learn a new, and i will not give into the old, thank you all those who put up with my rants, forgive me for all those i have offended, and thank you to those who have helped me.
I feel massively blessed to be allowed this chance to help me start over so, DSA, SFE, OU, Ergonomics, students and tutors, thank you all for this opportunity.
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