Today has been one of the best days i have had in a long time, a lot of time spent radically accepting, showing gratitude, reaching out, making amends, being receptive of help and support offered, taking myself out of the victim role and accepting responsibility.
I think i will sleep better tonight knowing that i tried and was successful at making an attempt to stand up to my mental health issues along with tackling my substance misuse issues.
As much as i was taught that the world was a nasty place and people in the world were also nasty, the best thing about the end of an emotional or substance relapse is the realisation that the world is a beautiful place and there most certainly are beautiful people out there and most importantly, the realisation and acceptance that it is not the world or people that change, what changes is the way i see myself which i transfer over.
I can not escape my role as the self monitoring coach that is always trying to self develop to the best of my abilities, my drive to know, understand and manage myself, is relentless, its not obsessive, just something i take very serious.
In fact i enjoy the process of encountering mini epiphanies that let me know that i understand myself that little bit more, that will enable me to be a better version of myself, the transformation can be a little overwhelming at times, if i can make it through the day, doing nothing that will keep me up at night, then I'm winning.
Day 144 of OU studies
Today has been one of the best days i have had in a long time, a lot of time spent radically accepting, showing gratitude, reaching out, making amends, being receptive of help and support offered, taking myself out of the victim role and accepting responsibility.
I think i will sleep better tonight knowing that i tried and was successful at making an attempt to stand up to my mental health issues along with tackling my substance misuse issues.
As much as i was taught that the world was a nasty place and people in the world were also nasty, the best thing about the end of an emotional or substance relapse is the realisation that the world is a beautiful place and there most certainly are beautiful people out there and most importantly, the realisation and acceptance that it is not the world or people that change, what changes is the way i see myself which i transfer over.
I can not escape my role as the self monitoring coach that is always trying to self develop to the best of my abilities, my drive to know, understand and manage myself, is relentless, its not obsessive, just something i take very serious.
In fact i enjoy the process of encountering mini epiphanies that let me know that i understand myself that little bit more, that will enable me to be a better version of myself, the transformation can be a little overwhelming at times, if i can make it through the day, doing nothing that will keep me up at night, then I'm winning.
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