Ever Since i have started shielding with my Mother In February of last year, i have had a first hand experience of witnessing the damage done to my Mother resulting in her marriage to my father. beforehand, when i was living in my own house and i would frequently phone her, or pop around to see her i discovered that my Mother was very good at hiding the truth from me. I have been made aware that my Mothers situation is far worse than she allowed me to believe, i have always felt in my heart that things were not right for my Mother and so i would try to encourage her in every way i could, sometimes the consistent encouragement with no effect would be met with deniel from my Mother and if i am honest, it would turn in to frustration from me, which in turn served no purpose and then i would find myself back at square one. This pattern of behaviour has gone for at least 6 years, to which my Mothers quality of life has slipped dramatically. At times i have felt i have been banging my head against the wall, while watching a woman who i love so much, sacrifice her own suffering for her own personal reasons, My Mother has prolonged episodes of not wanting to take part in life and she feels she is not worthy to take part in life, she also has panic attacks that can last for 24 hours and often results in us attending the hospital. So you can imagine the, relief, excitement and happiness i felt for her when she said to me that she can not take any more of this, i feels she is rotting away and that she has to to do something about it,. I genuinely couldn't believe my ears, i had goosebumps and started to cry then hugged my Mother with all my might, as i knew that because the admission came from her that a change was coming, as we all know, we cannot save people or rescue people, we just have to be patient with a thick skin, ready for when they choose to save themselves, then we can support them. On Monday my Mother and i are putting our plan in to action, which will see the start of a new chapter for my Mother, for the first time ever my Mother has asked for help and i guarantee my life on it, i will support her until she gets the help that she deserves, gob bless you Mum xxx
Day 159 of OU studies
beforehand, when i was living in my own house and i would frequently phone her, or pop around to see her i discovered that my Mother was very good at hiding the truth from me.
I have been made aware that my Mothers situation is far worse than she allowed me to believe, i have always felt in my heart that things were not right for my Mother and so i would try to encourage her in every way i could, sometimes the consistent encouragement with no effect would be met with deniel from my Mother and if i am honest, it would turn in to frustration from me, which in turn served no purpose and then i would find myself back at square one.
This pattern of behaviour has gone for at least 6 years, to which my Mothers quality of life has slipped dramatically. At times i have felt i have been banging my head against the wall, while watching a woman who i love so much, sacrifice her own suffering for her own personal reasons, My Mother has prolonged episodes of not wanting to take part in life and she feels she is not worthy to take part in life, she also has panic attacks that can last for 24 hours and often results in us attending the hospital.
So you can imagine the, relief, excitement and happiness i felt for her when she said to me that she can not take any more of this, i feels she is rotting away and that she has to to do something about it,. I genuinely couldn't believe my ears, i had goosebumps and started to cry then hugged my Mother with all my might, as i knew that because the admission came from her that a change was coming, as we all know, we cannot save people or rescue people, we just have to be patient with a thick skin, ready for when they choose to save themselves, then we can support them.
On Monday my Mother and i are putting our plan in to action, which will see the start of a new chapter for my Mother, for the first time ever my Mother has asked for help and i guarantee my life on it, i will support her until she gets the help that she deserves, gob bless you Mum xxx
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