Edited by Casper Smith, Saturday, 3 Apr 2021, 14:34
building up to and preparing to continue painting my mothers house, n a burst of energy i tackled the front room, walls, ceiling and woodwork, as soon as the burst of energy came it left just the same, so Monday is the day i continues down the hallway, into the bathroom then in to the kitchen which will complete the down stairs.
My beautiful mum has issues installed by fathers violent behaviour, so her self belief, self worth and motivation lacks a little and the inability for her to recognise this can leave her feeling not as good as the possibilties, my mum also has mobility issues which make it that little bit harder for her to move around as much as what is needed for her to maintain a certain level of activeness.
As a result my mum can sit in one spot for a long time, she is a smoker, which dont help, although my mum is 73 and i can not teach her how to suck eggs, instead i sit and watch and support when she needs or asks for it. Over the years her house has become covered in a microfilm of nicotine, which is the main inspiration for wanting to paint, also it will lift her spirits to be able to sit in her home and see it fresh and looking clean.
My mums owns her house outright and her house is a new build, so keeping it looking similar to what it looked like when it was first built is not that hard of a job, as long as i stay on top of things and not let my mental health or substance misuse issues take over to the point where i neglect them, plus completing tasks like this can help me build my self esteem and keep me motivated, because of the chronic nerve condition i suffer from, means that it takes me ten times as long, as i have to do it in short spurts and almost OD on my prescribed medication, its amazing how i have learned to use my left arm ever since i was diagnosed with the nerve condition.
So Monday i will attempt to make a start, as long as my mental health is stable, i have took enough medication, i take my time, i mean really take my time, i stick to the exercises that i learn from Pain Management Solutions, and i use my left side as much as i can, i stand a chance of being able to to get something done.
What i hate the most is that i started working at the age of 14 with my Romany Gypsy father who removed rubbish, tarmacked/block paved roadways and drives, collected scrap metal/cleaned scrap metal, felled trees, reared horses, all of which were reputable companies that were able to undertake work to a high standard, we were very hard working with a natural instinct for problem solving, my father would do any job and did any job for cash money and being his sidekick from the age of 13 onwards, i would be able to work most men in to the ground, going from that to explaining what i have to do in order to do a poxy bit of painting can be soul destroying if i let, so the trick is not to let it.
Day 186 of OU studies
building up to and preparing to continue painting my mothers house, n a burst of energy i tackled the front room, walls, ceiling and woodwork, as soon as the burst of energy came it left just the same, so Monday is the day i continues down the hallway, into the bathroom then in to the kitchen which will complete the down stairs.
My beautiful mum has issues installed by fathers violent behaviour, so her self belief, self worth and motivation lacks a little and the inability for her to recognise this can leave her feeling not as good as the possibilties, my mum also has mobility issues which make it that little bit harder for her to move around as much as what is needed for her to maintain a certain level of activeness.
As a result my mum can sit in one spot for a long time, she is a smoker, which dont help, although my mum is 73 and i can not teach her how to suck eggs, instead i sit and watch and support when she needs or asks for it. Over the years her house has become covered in a microfilm of nicotine, which is the main inspiration for wanting to paint, also it will lift her spirits to be able to sit in her home and see it fresh and looking clean.
My mums owns her house outright and her house is a new build, so keeping it looking similar to what it looked like when it was first built is not that hard of a job, as long as i stay on top of things and not let my mental health or substance misuse issues take over to the point where i neglect them, plus completing tasks like this can help me build my self esteem and keep me motivated, because of the chronic nerve condition i suffer from, means that it takes me ten times as long, as i have to do it in short spurts and almost OD on my prescribed medication, its amazing how i have learned to use my left arm ever since i was diagnosed with the nerve condition.
So Monday i will attempt to make a start, as long as my mental health is stable, i have took enough medication, i take my time, i mean really take my time, i stick to the exercises that i learn from Pain Management Solutions, and i use my left side as much as i can, i stand a chance of being able to to get something done.
What i hate the most is that i started working at the age of 14 with my Romany Gypsy father who removed rubbish, tarmacked/block paved roadways and drives, collected scrap metal/cleaned scrap metal, felled trees, reared horses, all of which were reputable companies that were able to undertake work to a high standard, we were very hard working with a natural instinct for problem solving, my father would do any job and did any job for cash money and being his sidekick from the age of 13 onwards, i would be able to work most men in to the ground, going from that to explaining what i have to do in order to do a poxy bit of painting can be soul destroying if i let, so the trick is not to let it.
WWG1WGA