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After a painful three days i have decided that it is time for me to part company from my family, regardless of the out come of my court case i will be looking to moving to a different location and looking to a start of life without the people who are responsible for my mental health disorders and triggers, which are making it very hard to move forward and leave my past behind and in fact deal with the symptoms of my mental health disorders.

No validation, understanding, recognition or acknowledgment for my symptoms or triggers just blame and punishment for displaying symptoms. I am tired of being the black sheep, i am tired of only being recognised for the mistakes i make with no acknowledgment of any good that i do and i am tired of watching my family and the favoured treatment of putting one above the other, literally putting price tags on peoples heads. 

In 2008 my uncle (mothers brother) won £20,000,000 on the lottery and that is exactly what has happened, people that really needed help in my family received nothing and yet the ones in my family that turned to be a regret of my uncles generosity received help beyond their wildest imagination. This favouritism was only highlight during this process leaving it plain to see as is carries on to this day, i need to remove myself from this situation and protect myself against the laws of a family that does what it wants to who it wants whenever they feel like it with no thought to the thought's and feelings of any one else involved. 

People like myself who are up against false allegations and stand to loose all i have received no help or support what so ever, yet murderers in my family are supported and justified to the point they receive hundreds of thousands for legal bills and a £2000,000 house on his release from prison.

As you can imagine it is hard to live amongst a family with dynamics like this and function properly and if you speak up about it I'm screamed at to keep quiet. Well, it's on the basis of this that tells me i have to get away from the toxicity and build a life that will not be impacted by the negative influence of people that trick me by telling me they love me.

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