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Today should have been the start of of my trial, only to find out my trial wasn't listed for today and i would receive an email to tell me if it was listed tomorrow, earlier today i received that email and now my trial starts tomorrow. My mum has been a bit teary so i have tried to tell her share my faith and hope and not get involved in thoughts, feelings or emotions that are related to opinions or judgements about what might happen, which is easier said than done, because all you mothers out there will understand that being told not to worry about your children is pretty much the same as being asked not to breath . I am fully prepared in every way and i am hoping that the system will restore my faith in truth, honesty and the difference between right and wrong. This trial has been three years in the making and once it is all over my celebration party will be the party of all parties, i plan to travel to the south of France for a week in the sun, attend this years Silverstone Grand Prix VIP, buy my mum her favourite car that she has always wanted, which in a blue 1972 Auto, soft top Mercedes sl 450 and most important of all, live my life to the fullest with as many selfless acts as i can fit, i have learned so much about myself and life's uncertainties over the last three years and the vow that i have made to look at life through a new lens that involve holding a hand out to help wherever i can and not hold my hand out to take whatever i can. There is no thing in the world that can match up to value of the human spirit and human nature, to say this experience has put things in to perspective is an understatement. Self pity, self loathing, self obsession, self gratification and any any other reference that covers the ego gorging and filling its fat face are a thing of the past, because no matter how tough things get, things can always be worse and the fact that i can bask in that concept i will always be lifted from the debilitating state victimization, i am not a victim nor will i allow myself to become one.

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