Feeling unwell again today, and that's alright, sickness is part of life. It isn't sickness or fatigue that's the problem. It's my aversion to it that's the problem. Let go of the aversion and one can make peace with anything.
The five wise reflections
' I am of the nature to become sick, I have not gone beyond ill health.
I am of the nature to age, I have not gone beyond growing old.
I am of the nature to die, I have not gone beyond death.
Everything I hold dear and everyone I love will become separated from me due to the nature of change.
I am the heir of my kamma, the owner of my kamma, born of my kamma, related to my kamma. Therefore I should try to remember whatever I do good or bad, becomes the kamma I inherit.' - [attributed to the Buddha]
Comments
Cheers Bud
Yeah I'm good man.
I'm glad your course is going well, and that you are also well.
I am seeing clearly how a mind without aversion is a much happier mind. I have not enjoyed this module on algorithms I have been studying it has often felt like torture. But a strange thing happened today, I realised just like I did with my sickness and fatigue that it isn't the module that's the problem, it's my aversion to it that's the problem. And today I had one of the best study days I've had in ages and was able to problem solve and answer a challenging question without any aversion to it at all, and quite enjoyed myself. Although fatigue kicks in and I have to stop studying and have a rest, but I don't have a problem with that either. Fatigue is just the kamma for having a body, and when I let go of the aversion towards it, it didn't seem like such a big deal anymore.
Aversion is an unpleasant state of mind, it has unpleasant sensations, when I let go of it I felt such a huge relief, it was like putting down a heavy rock I've been carrying around for a very long time. Everyone should aspire to let go of aversion, honestly the mind feels so much lighter and happier without it.
Next thing to deal with once aversion is sufficiently calmed, is greed, which is a tricky one, greed is much harder to remove from the mind than aversion; but once the power of greed and aversion is weakened enough, one can get to the root of the problem which is delusion(ignorance). If that gets replaced with lucidity, that's when one becomes fully awakened/enlightened.