Personal Blogs

2011–06–22

overload[3]

This is becoming boring.

I’ve had to take a day off work tomorrow so that I can complete my TMA. I’ve still got one-and-one-half questions to do and one unit book still only glanced at. I’m angry with me—this is the worst [OU] mess that I’ve ever been in, and I should know better, I ain’t no tyro. There are excuses: the M257 exam, a busy work-life, a new computer and it’s crappy default behaviour, my run-down condition [back under eight stone]. Still…

One of the most important things that the OU has taught me is to be honest, about me. And if I’m being honest, this was inevitable. There’s too much going on in my life, something had to give. True, I spent Sunday lying on the couch reading a book [not a course one], but I needed that—another thing that I’ve learnt, know when you’re knackered. To be aware of your failings is a form of success.

We’re all going to be here, where I’m now, sometime—the nadir—the point is to win through. It’s the mental toughness, it’s the “I won’t lie down’, it’s the I’m going to learn whatever, that will pull us through. Actually it’s about your mastery of you.

We should all wake at dawn, watch the Sun come up and just say, “I can do it!”. We don’t, but in our heads we must pretend that we do.

[password hell so I'll post here.]

this one is plan B, for sure