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Opinion
The Bridge
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I think I am a little further towards achieving a goal. Yet, like all things, I believe, there is always a trade-off; a falling plane which has lost its engines trades height for speed as it dives, and this allows the plane to maintain lift as it continues to move forward through the air instead of 'pan-caking' on the ground. Nobody wants a plane to belly-flop its landing. Of course, when a plane loses its engines no-one wants to enjoy the view above the clouds anymore so this trade-off is good, right? A glider, on the other hand, trades its position for longevity of the flight. They stay aloft due to the lift the long wings give and they can land safely with no engine. Usually though, they use, when they are in good hands, updrafts of warm air to push them higher in the air in combination with the lift from their wings. This means they have to circle or do figure-of-eights in the same area to benefit from a positive contributory factor. We can see that the two models are quite distinct from each other in that while velocity through the air is necessary for both types of aircraft only the glider, in my simple scenarios, can use air temperature as an additional force, which is to the glider, a contributory force.
My goal is to make all falling aircraft into gliders when it is prudent for them to accept a positive contribution. My goal is not to persuade the falling that they should or could benefit from anything. My goal is to provide a warm updraft. That is my 'raison d'etre' for being an undergraduate. (If we use French we show more passion, don't you know? If we use Latin, we show gravity, sanctity and decorum. Hmmm. If only we had French and Latin words in the English language).
I have to change myself to make myself into the right-shaped tool to fit an ugly-shaped lock. I dwell in two aspects as do many people in my target group. There is me, locked inside myself; and there is me, showing myself to the world. Doubly so for me because I live in a world, that for me, has been designed by dogs. Yet, within that world, there is an aspect that many people have lost the ability to reach; emotion. How do we provide entertainment, and transition to a different fictional/fantasy world, for people who's emotions have been sealed up within themselves?
A long time ago, I realised I was different. I was neither here or there; neither you or me; neither feeling, or numb. The most telling aspect of myself, once I looked, was that I reflected everyone who faced me; just as a mirror does when an image falls on it in the cold hard light of a cold hard day. There is no soft ambient light with me. Soon after I discovered that, I had to do something with it. When I was sixteen, and was asked to choose between one spiritual path and another, I said I will have to wait to be able to choose wisely. I knew that I had to be the bridge and not to cross the bridge. I had to bear weight, as a contributor, and not be a passive entity in a crowd. My target market is the group of people who are emotionally and spiritually bereft through no fault of their own. How can I provide forms of entertainment that do not rely on accessing people's emotions. How would I re-paint Edvard Munch's The Scream in a way that it is more than a bunch of colours on a canvas to many people and make it entertaining?
I have to develop one part of me while I keep another part unchanged, and I have to be able to allow those two parts to talk to each other inside of me. I could let them both be a singularity by letting one part of me melt away, but I am, as I learn to let my own emotions be felt, disturbed that I will then cross a bridge and never be able to reach both sides again; to be lose any possibility to be truly the right person in the right place to assist others who cannot cross their own bridges.