Right first of all catch up, I have finshed my 4th TMA and I decided to run yesterday, 11th, and well I tried in 27C to run 5 mile I got 3.5 miles and a tiny bit of heat stoke. Then a sensory overload because of the heatstroke- I don't like heat.
This topic is going to be a kinda fun one because the only I can describe somethings are going to describe or explain I might have to use song lyrics. I am hopfully going to talk about friends or at least my idea of friendship.
This is kinda common some people with autism have rules, as with everything we have rules. I will run through my basic rules to show how bad some of these can be. If i can i will try to explain so of them.
1) Have to be able to keep up with me mentally- so if can speak to them and don't have to dumb anything down.
2) Have to be female- its a precourtion most males are either agressive and/or posessive through evoultion so stop me mimicing or adopting any traits.
3) Have to be paitent- I tend to deither around so paitents helps also if they are calm, I should be.
4) Should be understanding- I tend either not to listen or I if i shutdown, I hope they understand.
5) Have to be accepting- I don't like bigots,racists or people who try and sway views.
Right these are basic rules from there more rules spring off. I will run through the stages of friendship for me aswell i think most are accepted but i will run through them anyway.
Stage 1) accquantice
Stage 2) higher accquantice- Males go no higher then here.
Stage 3) Outline friend- most people who fit the rules end here (This is where the rules start to apply)
Stage 4) Friend- have one or two people between here and stage 5
Stage 5) Fixed Friend- More commonly known as a best friend
So its quite hard to fit on to the scale. That was the idea because i got bullied from a young age this was my way of filtering out fake friends.
All of this is basic of logic, not common sense partly because i have very little but also have and keeping friends needs emotions. I don't have a big enough emotional range and the higher up the stage the more emotional envolement you are meant to have with them. Some people have to me they are just friends, but i am meant to look after friends. If I lose that connecton with someon in that stage4-5 its more like 'Since you been gone' - Rainbow. It's relivent and a bad pun at the same time . I think that is enough because i will be cover some of this in the Gender blog later on.