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Over the Gobi at Dusk

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Over the Gobi at Dusk

Somewhere between Manila and Amsterdam, the plane slipped into evening and crossed the Gobi Desert. I stared down for more than an hour and still we had not passed it. Below stretched a vastness that seemed unending, an ocean of earth in ochres and greys, ridges and plains brushed by the last light of day. From above it appeared empty, yet I could not help but wonder about the lives being lived down there.

I thought of families in their gers, the round felt dwellings scattered like white shells across the land. I imagined them gathered around a stove as the cold pressed in, sharing food, telling stories, perhaps tending to worries that were not so different from mine: the health of loved ones, the future of children, the struggle to endure. Their joys and anxieties seemed no less real for being tucked away in such remoteness.

What would silence sound like in the depth of night, broken only by the wind brushing at the canvas? To wake and hear nothing, no traffic, no hum of machines, not even the rustle of leaves. Just the stillness of creation itself. Perhaps it is in such silence that the soul becomes attuned to something greater, something that modern life has smothered.

And then, the sky. I envied them that. To look up from the dark of the Gobi and see the heavens in their fullness, a Milky Way unbroken, stars uncountable, so thick they must feel like a river flowing overhead. To live beneath such a sky each night is to live close to the infinite, to be reminded that we are small, passing, yet also deeply connected to the eternal and the creator.

As I sat in my seat high above, I found myself longing for that simplicity, that communion with earth and sky. For the desert dwellers, it is a given. For me, it was a glimpse, a yearning awakened by the view from thirty thousand feet. And whilst I envy them, they look up at me and wonder what cultures I have left and what cultures I belong to. One day, yes one day, we will hopefully meet in that grand time that Job, the Biblical character, called The Renewal.

“I wish you would hide me in the grave and forget me there until your anger has passed.

But mark your calendar to think of me again!"

Job 14:13 (TLB).

Scripture quotations taken from The Living Bible, copyright © 1971 by Tyndale House Foundation. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers, Carol Stream, Illinois 60188. All rights reserved.

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One Life Is Not Enough

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One Life Is Not Enough

My wife and I were browsing pianos in a music shop yesterday. I’ve always loved music. But as the years go by, I find myself increasingly drawn to stripped-down versions of familiar songs, bare, honest arrangements where every note matters. I do play the guitar, though not very well anymore. The stiffness in my fingers has allowed time to quietly steal away my ability.

As I listened to the warm, resonant tones of a new piano, a thought emerged uninvited: one life is not enough; not enough to explore the vastness of music, not enough to fully express what stirs inside us. There are whole worlds hidden behind the keys of a piano, the strings of a cello, the breath of a flute. And no matter how we try, time is always shorter than we think.

I thought of missed opportunities. Of my younger self and the dreams, I shelved. The idea of playing “Brian Boru’s March” on a quality flute still lingers from my folk music days some thirty years ago. I’ve imagined reaching that soaring high G on the cello in Benedictus or playing that haunting saxophone solo from Hazel O’Connor’s Will You. But with age comes realism. Not self-pity, just honesty. Those days, for now, are gone; gone for this life, at least.

And yet, I’m not without hope.

The biblical figure Job—part poet, part philosopher—once asked a question that still echoes: “If a man dies, will he live again?” It’s the question at the root of every human longing, every song, every prayer, every ache of beauty we encounter. In his own answer, Job declares, “All the days of my hard service I will wait until my renewal comes.” He saw that life, in all its complexity, must mean more than dust and disappearance.

That longing makes sense to me. We love, we create, we grow into our humanity, we fill our minds with memory and learning and art—and what, only to vanish? That doesn’t add up. Not when the heart keeps reaching.

So yes, I have hope. In the Renewal Jesus promised, I believe I will play “Brian Boru’s March” on a perfect flute. I will pick up the cello and finally reach that high G—not just in music, but in spirit. Because Christ said, “He who believes in me will live, even though he dies.”

And that, to me, sounds like the most beautiful note of all.

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Where do we go? My thoughts

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Edited by Jim McCrory, Sunday 16 February 2025 at 10:27


You open Your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing.

Psalm 145: 16. (BSB).



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I’m driving to the supermarket this morning. “Don’t forget the corn chips,” my wife said. I can’t believe these snacks are £2.50 a packet. “Oh, and dips to go with them,” she requests. That's another £1.75. Goodness! Once upon a time, I recall buying crisps with a wee blue packet of salt inside for a thruppenny bit—that’s 2.5 pence in today's money in the U.K. You do the maths.

Anyway, I’m in a bit of a nostalgic mood by musing on the past. It’s this song I’m listening to in the car. It’s Runrig’s "The Ocean Road." My wife listens to their music, but I do both: I listen to the words and the music. I am a writer, and I studied English Literature when I was at university. It’s all about words for me and how they are arranged into beautiful formats.

"The Ocean Road" is a beautiful, emotive track that epitomizes the band's ability to blend folk rock with themes deeply rooted in Scottish culture and landscapes. The song appears on their 1999 album "In Search of Angels." It's a poignant reflection on the passage of time and the journey of life, highlighting themes of return, memory, and the powerful draw of home. But there’s something else; it’s about the desire to capture youth once again, to live a life once more.

I find it evokes a sense of spirituality. When I arrived home, I read Psalm 37; something I always do when feeling nostalgic due to aging. This is the Psalm that Jesus quoted when he said the "meek" or "righteous" would inherit the earth. Verse 29 reads,

 “Those leading God-pleasing lives will inherit His land and settle there forever.”

I’ve often spoken to God and requested that if I am found worthy of everlasting life, and the paradise is planet Earth, “may I be on one of the Western Isles?”


Psalm 37: 29:  Scripture taken from The Voice™. Copyright © 2012 by Ecclesia Bible Society. Used by permission. All rights reserved.

The Ocean Road: Runrig - The Ocean Road - Live

 

 

 


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