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Feeling disappointed with myself

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Edited by Christine Selby, Friday, 6 Nov 2020, 08:15

Over the past 5 weeks I have been concentrating so hard on TMA and nailing a decent score in the iCMA I have totally abandoned my fitness that I built up so well. 

Running was easier - cycling was enjoyable... I had a fairly good balance (or so I thought) 

Clocks changed, light hours changed, weather changed and lockdown returned. Before I knew it I was back in school working again. 

I am so upset and pissed off with myself for allowing it to slip away and I am paying the price. I feel fat, frumpy, disgusting and horrid again. 

Let’s look on the bright side - my youngest has started pre school. Meaning I have 3 hours on the morning of Monday and Friday free. What should be study time I have to do something for me to get me out of this rut I’m back in again. This morning I’m heading out on my bike to climb the local hills. Hopefully I will feel a little better and the little one will be tired enough from school to have a nap for me to study a little. 

Time to start my redemption and claw back the body I had begun to sculpt 5 weeks ago. 

I will be happy 😃 


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Keeping myself sane

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Edited by Christine Selby, Thursday, 29 Oct 2020, 20:43

Here again, pondering about what the next few years will bring and what possible changes I have in store for my life. 

Managed to get out to join a group of runners last night to think about something other than my degree start date. Feeling good to be able to run with others rather than myself. (too much alone thinking time when I solo)

The dates are counting down and managed to get a little reading done, but still getting my head round the best way to approach studying. There is the way I think it will work, then there are the suggestions from OU and other ideas from others. Mind blown - haven't even got stuck in properly yet. 

Well off to work for me today....hope to get some hours in this evening. 


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