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Empathy: The Lost Language of Connection

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Empathy: The Lost Language of Connection

Empathy is the ability to feel with another person—not simply to feel for them, which is sympathy, but to enter their world, to stand in their shoes, however briefly, and see life from behind their eyes. It is the quiet miracle of one human heart recognizing another. The word stems from the Greek empatheia, meaning “in feeling,” yet no single culture owns its full expression. In fact, some languages carry richer nuances that reveal empathy’s deeper layers.

In Japanese, the word “omoiyari” conveys a form of empathy that is anticipatory—it means sensing and responding to the unspoken needs of others, especially before those needs are voiced. In the African philosophy of Ubuntu, we find the phrase: “I am because we are.” It suggests our humanity is shared and incomplete without others. The Danish concept of “hjertemøde”, a “meeting of hearts,” implies a silent understanding, a wordless connection. And in Portuguese, “saudade”—a bittersweet longing—often arises from deep bonds, echoing the ache we feel when we miss someone so profoundly that we momentarily inhabit their absence.

Yet in today’s world, empathy is increasingly absent. Despite the illusion of connection via digital media, many suffer in silence, drowned out by noise or passed over in the blur of busyness. Society rewards speed, success, and self-promotion, leaving little room for the slow, sacred act of listening. In such a climate, vulnerability becomes risky. People hold their grief in, suppress their fears, and smile through sorrow. As novelist George Eliot wrote, “What do we live for, if not to make life less difficult for each other?” But this wisdom is too often forgotten.

Empathy cannot be downloaded or manufactured. It must be practiced, cultivated, chosen—especially when inconvenient. We must resist the instinct to judge, to fix, or to rush in with platitudes. Sometimes, the most human thing we can do is simply be there. As Harper Lee wrote in To Kill a Mockingbird, “You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... until you climb into his skin and walk around in it.”

What can we do?

We can pause. We can ask, “How are you—really?” and mean it. We can notice the quiet ones. We can create space for stories to be shared without shame. We can teach our children emotional literacy—how to name feelings and respond to others with kindness. We can choose not to scroll past pain but to hold it gently.

Empathy is not weakness. It is strength under control. It is the soul’s muscle memory, remembering what it is to be human. And in a world aching with loneliness, perhaps the most radical act of love is to say, “I see you. You are not alone.”

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A Year to Live — and a Psalm to Hold on To

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Edited by Jim McCrory, Friday, 18 July 2025, 22:32

I sat in that sterile room and heard the doctor say “cancer,” 

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A Year to Live — and a Psalm to Hold on To

In September 2023, I was given a year to live.

Neuroendocrine cancer, which began quietly in the prostate, had spread its wings and made itself at home in my pancreas and liver. The words came gently from the doctor, but they shook the earth beneath me. How do you take news like that? There’s no script for it.

And yet… God had already written one.

The morning, I was due to receive my results, something extraordinary happened. Before I stepped into the hospital — before the diagnosis had a name or a timeline — God spoke to me through words I hadn’t sought, but that found me like a lifeline dropped into deep waters.

It was Psalm 91:1–2:

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.’"

I didn’t read those words casually. They were spoken into my spirit — not just read, but revealed. It was as if God said, “This is for you. For today. For what you’re about to hear.”

And He didn’t stop there.

Later that evening, my wife — who has walked every step of this with me — pointed out something I had overlooked. She had been reading the same Psalm, but her eyes were drawn to the closing verses:

“Because he loves Me, I will deliver him;
because he knows My name, I will protect him.
When he calls out to Me, I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble.
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him
and show him My salvation.” — Psalm 91:14–16

In her quiet way, she saw what I needed. God was not just speaking to me about protection — He was promising presence. Not just shelter, but companionship in trouble. Not just deliverance, but honor. And most tenderly of all, long life — whether in days or eternity — and salvation.

To anyone who is suffering, to anyone who has sat in that sterile room and heard the doctor say “cancer,” or who lies awake wondering what the future holds: I want you to know that God still speaks. And more than that — He stays.

Psalm 91 doesn't promise the absence of pain. It promises His presence in it. It promises that when we love Him, when we call on Him, He hears. He answers. He walks with us.

I may have been given a year, but I have been given far more — I have been given hope. Not wishful thinking, but anchored hope. And I want to pass that on to you.

Because you are not alone.

He is with you.

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No Time For Love

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Edited by Jim McCrory, Thursday, 17 July 2025, 20:25

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In 1973, two social psychologists, John Darley and Daniel Batson, conducted a study with a title that immediately catches the eye: “From Jerusalem to Jericho: A Study of Situational and Dispositional Variables in Helping Behavior.” The title borrows from Jesus’ parable of the Good Samaritan, and the study asks a question as old as that story: why do some people stop to help while others walk by?

Darley and Batson didn’t take their research to a desert road in ancient Judea. They stayed on the campus of Princeton Theological Seminary, recruiting students training to become ministers. If anyone should stop to help a stranger, surely it would be them—or so we might think.

The setup was clever and simple. Each student was asked to walk to another building to give a short talk. Some were told the talk would be on job prospects for ministers, others on the parable of the Good Samaritan itself. On the way, each student passed someone slumped in a doorway, coughing and groaning—a man clearly in need of help.

The twist? Time pressure. Some students were told they were already late. Others were told they were just on time. A third group was told they had a few minutes to spare. That small variable changed everything.

The results were stark. Of those in a hurry, only 10 percent stopped to help. Of those not rushed, 63 percent did. And what about the topic of their talk? Whether they were about to speak on the Good Samaritan or on ministry careers made little difference. Ironically, some students on their way to deliver a sermon about compassion stepped right over the man in need.

It’s easy to smile wryly at that—but then the discomfort sets in. Isn’t this us? How many times have we passed someone in need, not because we’re heartless, but because we’re in a rush? The world may no longer demand ritual purity as it did for the priest and Levite in Jesus’ story, but it certainly demands efficiency. And in that demand, something gets squeezed out: the space to see, to notice, to care.

What strikes me most is the weak influence of personal disposition on behaviour. Being more “religious” or inwardly spiritual didn’t make much difference. Even preparing a talk on the Good Samaritan wasn’t enough to make someone act like one. That’s a sobering thought. It suggests that moral character on its own is fragile. We like to believe we’re guided by principles, but so often we’re shaped by pressures—the tyranny of the urgent.

For people of faith, this raises uncomfortable questions. If theological training, spiritual reflection, and even preaching on mercy don’t automatically translate into compassionate action, what does? Perhaps the answer is less about what we believe in the abstract and more about the rhythms of our lives. If we never allow margin, if we’re always rushing, the groaning man in the doorway becomes invisible.

Reading about this experiment feels like holding up a mirror. In the past I was part of a religious group where there was always a driving force to do more. I felt Like a whirling Dervish.  I can recall moments when I’ve walked by—not always physically, but emotionally or spiritually. Times when someone near me needed help and I had the words, but not the time. And I wonder if that isn’t the quiet tragedy of our age: not that we don’t care, but that we don’t pause long enough to show it.

And yet there’s hope in these findings too. If environment plays such a big role, then we can shape it. We can slow down. We can create breathing space in our lives. We can choose to look up. Helping behaviour, after all, often begins with something as simple as stopping.

The road from Jerusalem to Jericho may have been short, but it revealed everything about the travellers who walked it. In our own modern roads—crowded schedules, relentless alerts, tasks demanding attention—the challenge remains the same. Will we notice? Will we stop?

Darley and Batson’s study is more than an academic exercise. It’s a quiet parable about us. Belief without action is noise. Compassion without time is a dream. And out there, still, are people in doorways, coughing, waiting, hoping someone will care enough to be late.

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Beyond Blame: How Young Men Grow Up

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“Other people are never the problem, although blaming them for your own misery is.”

— Jordan Peterson

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 Beyond Blame: How Young Men Grow Up

There’s a stage in many young men’s lives when the world feels unfair, and somewhere in that tangle of frustration and identity, they turn their eyes back, to childhood, to family, to the parents who raised them, and ask, “Is this their fault?”

It’s an understandable question. For many, the early years weren’t easy. Some fathers were distant or demanding, some mothers overwhelmed or emotionally unreachable. Some homes were fraught with silence, others with shouting. When life in adulthood becomes difficult, when relationships break down, ambition falters, or confidence thins. It's easy to trace the outline of those early years and see failure stamped on every corner. And easier still to assign blame rather than seeing your own faults and failures.

Jordan Peterson has spoken directly to this kind of thinking, particularly among young men who feel unmoored. In one of his many talks, he delivers it plainly: “Other people are never the problem, although blaming them for your own misery is.” It's not that he denies trauma or downplays pain. His point is sharper: staying in the blame keeps you stuck. It puts your life’s steering wheel in someone else’s hands.

That hits a nerve. Because the truth is, blaming your parents feels like doing something—but it achieves nothing. It’s a way to hold the past accountable while avoiding the difficult work of changing the present.

Peterson’s message here isn’t cruel. It’s a call to agency. You may not be responsible for what happened to you, but you are responsible for what happens next. That distinction is everything.

There’s a point when a man has to make peace with his past—not by approving it, but by refusing to be ruled by it. Some never get there. They become experts in pointing backward. They rehearse old grievances until the memory of their father becomes bigger than their own reflection in the mirror. They wait for healing to come from someone else’s apology. But healing doesn’t work like that. Healing begins when you accept that no one else is coming to rescue you—and that you don’t need them to.

Growing up is partly learning that people are flawed. That your parents, however sacred or disappointing, were human beings working with what they had. Sometimes they didn’t know better. Sometimes they did and still failed. But endlessly re-litigating those failures is a poor substitute for growth.

What matters is what you do with the pieces.

You can blame the men before you—or you can become the man you needed them to be.

Responsibility sounds dull compared to the heat of resentment. But responsibility is where the real fire is. It’s where your life begins to take shape on your terms. When you decide to build something better—not out of spite, but out of vision—you become something different. You stop being a reaction and start being a force.

Blame is passive. Ownership is active.

There’s no ceremony for this kind of transition. It’s quiet, private. Often, no one sees it. But the moment you stop fixating on who failed you and start asking what you can do now, something shifts. You move from being a passenger to taking the wheel.

Some carry father wounds for life. But others become fathers themselves—not just biologically, but in the broader sense: creators, mentors, builders of a better legacy. They don’t pretend the past was perfect. They simply stop letting it dictate their future.

Not because it didn’t matter.

But because something else matters more.

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Signals of Hope in Europe’s Apathy

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Signals of Hope in Europe’s Apathy

I remember coming home one quiet Friday evening some years ago and switching on the television. What greeted me was not a blockbuster or a newsflash, but a live broadcast of a train weaving its way from Oslo to Bergen. Just a train, simply moving forward, yet something about it stirred me deeply. Perhaps it was the rhythm of the rails echoing the rhythm of my own memories. I had once lived in Stavanger, and as the Norwegian landscape slipped past the window, I felt something unspoken draw near. A homesickness, not just for a place, but for a time, a life, a self that seemed to hover just beyond the reach of the present.

It happened again, unexpectedly, last Friday. I clicked on YouTube and was met with the sound of praise echoing through Buchanan Street—Glasgow voices joined by Christians from Amsterdam, singing into the bright evening with hearts full of devotion. I’m a non-denominational Christian, cautious of labels and institutions, but this moment transcended categories. It wasn’t about where they were from, or which group they belonged to. It was the spirit behind the song; the courage to lift their voices in public, to speak of something higher in a world so often pinned down by cynicism.

There’s something holy about this uninvited moment that arrived without fanfare. A street chorus. They pierce the ordinary with hints of the eternal, small signals in the fog reminding us of we’re not alone, and that faith—quiet, personal, and sometimes faltering—is still strong enough to sing in the open air.

We’re all on a journey. Sometimes we travel by train, sometimes by memory, and sometimes by spirit. But every so often, grace appears in the window or at the street corner, and we remember who we are and where we’re going.

 

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The Father Wound

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The Father Wound

I have yet to meet someone who does not carry, in some form, a scar shaped like their father.

Some wear it openly and rich with exaggeration and embellishment  — an ache wrapped in anger or longing. Others tuck it away, quiet and folded like an old letter never sent. But it is there. Behind the eyes of grown men who still seek approval. Beneath the strength of women who learned early to protect their hearts. In the silence between generations, where things are felt but never said.

There is something universal about father wounds. They are not always born of cruelty. More often, they arise from absence — of words, of warmth, of presence. Even in homes where the father stayed, there are many ways a man can be gone.

Part of the weight lies in what the father represents. Across cultures and centuries, “Father” has not only been a man but a metaphor — for authority, protection, provision, and identity. In scripture, God is called Father. In myth, the patriarch is the one who bestows names, blessing, and land. He is the one we turn to, or run from, or try to become. Or, failing all that, the one we write about when we finally find the words.

No man can bear that symbolic weight. To be called ‘Father’ is to be cast in a role written by divine hands and performed by mortal ones; imperfect and flawed. Is it any wonder so many stumbles under its gravity? This is more acute when a child is sensitive. 

And so the ache passes down. Generation to generation. A man unloved becomes a father unsure of how to love. A boy raised on correction but starved of affection may either repeat the pattern or break under the strain of resisting it. Even the most tender-hearted father wrestles with the tension between authority and gentleness, between providing and being present. And many father complainers who become fathers learn this lesson. A man once said, "I let my son do as he wishes." But this came back to bite when the son's life spiralled into depression through wrong decisions  and later said to his father, "Why didn't you guide me?"

These days there are many fathers walk out in their marriages and leave a child feeling lost and confused. This produces mental and emotional scars that live with them for eternity. My father closed his eyes in my early teens and I know that pain.

Sons often grow up trying to earn their father's blessing, even if it was never offered. Daughters may grow up seeking the kind of safe embrace that protects without control. Both may enter adulthood still reaching for a word that was never spoken: You are enough.

Some of us spiritualize this longing, casting our eyes upward. We learn to speak of God as Father — a perfect parent who sees, knows, and understands. And yet even here the wounds speak. Many find it hard to trust a heavenly Father when their earthly one was distant, angry, or absent. The metaphors of scripture are not always healing at first. They must be lived into, slowly, like sunlight warming a long-shadowed room.

What does it mean, then, to grow beyond the wound?

If the ache is universal, so too is the hope of healing. Our stories need not end where they began. For many, healing comes slowly through self analysis and re-parenting the child within. For some, it comes in becoming a better father — or even a spiritual father — to others.

And for others still, it comes with the quiet conviction that we are not alone. That the One who called himself “Abba” meets us in our longing. Not with judgment, but with presence. Not with law, but with love.

No father can be perfect. But in the ache left behind, there is a strange kind of invitation — to look  inward, and forward. 

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Boots of Hope

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Boots of Hope

They sit quietly behind glass in Paisley Museum—two small, leather boots scuffed at the toe, the laces thin and frayed like breath on a frosted window. If you didn't know, you'd pass them by. Just another display. Just another lost pair.

But they belonged to a child who never came home from the Glen Cinema.

It was Hogmanay, 1929. The cinema had been packed with over 700 children, excited to see the afternoon matinee. Some were given the day’s fare as a treat from their parents, others had gathered coins from neighbours, eager to escape the grey drizzle of the town for the silver light of the screen. No one foresaw the horror to come. When smoke began to rise from the projection room, panic swept the theatre. The doors, in a cruel twist, opened inward. Children pushed, stumbled, fell. Seventy-one never rose again.

These boots tell none of that story outright. They do not scream or accuse. They are too small for that. But they whisper. They whisper of a child once clothed and kissed and coaxed out the door by a mother who tied those laces tight. They speak of life—unfinished, interrupted, innocent.

And yet, here they are. Still standing. Quiet testimony not only to what was lost, but to what refuses to be forgotten.

We live in a world that often feels the same, fragile, breathless, absurd. We, too, are pushed by unseen forces, unsure of the exits. But somehow, amid tragedy, the human soul clings to meaning. We keep small boots. We build museums. We write names on walls. We gather memory like firewood against the cold.

Because we believe, sometimes dimly, sometimes defiantly that life matters. That every child matters. That we are more than breath and bone.

These little boots, mute as they are, proclaim what the world so often denies: that even in horror, love survives. And that one day, perhaps beyond time itself, the lost will be found and the trampled will rise.

And the laces will be untied.

And the child will run again.

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I’ll Be Waiting

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 After a busy morning yesterday, I decided I deserved the afternoon off. I sat in front of YouTube, allowing it to numb me. I was barely paying attention when the algorithm threw me a curveball, one that carried me straight back to the seventies.

As I mentioned in an earlier post, I once worked night shifts in the Safeway supermarket on Paisley Road West. One morning, after finishing work, I wandered into Glasgow for no particular reason. As I passed Midland Street, a haunting piece of music drifted from a record shop. It was called Daybreak by an Irish group named Horslips. I walked straight in and bought it.

Back on the nightshift, I would play it over the public address system. My colleagues heard it too, and soon they were buying the album for themselves.

Their next album, The Man Who Built America, ended—if I remember rightly—with a melancholic track called I’ll Be Waiting. It’s a song about migration and It always made me feel strangely lonely, as though I were standing at the end of something.

Yesterday, that very song emerged on YouTube, this time played with the Ulster Orchestra. Some songs aren’t merely heard—they’re imprinted. They lie dormant for years, like seeds scattered across the soul in youth, waiting for time and experience to crack them open. Then, suddenly, decades later, a familiar melody resurfaces—not as background music, but as a key turning in the lock of memory.

In that moment, you’re no longer the age you are. You’re every age you’ve ever been. The tune becomes a threshold, transporting you back to a room you forgot you once inhabited, or to a version of yourself long buried beneath the sediment of years.

But it’s more than memory. It’s a kind of existential vertigo. Because the music doesn’t just bring the past forward—it reveals the distance travelled. It highlights the ache of transience. The weight of being. It reminds you that once, you felt everything with raw immediacy—and that now, you live with the knowledge you will never be that unguarded again.

This is nostalgia not as sentimentality, but as spiritual gravity—a longing for something both lost and eternal. The music becomes the ghost of your former self, and you find yourself mourning not only what was, but what could have been. It’s as if the soul remembers something the mind cannot articulate. I find it faith strengthening; a sense that life is more than chronology, and that these echoes from the past are proof we were meant to be more than dust and decay.

And so, you listen again. Not for pleasure alone, but for anchorage. Because in a world where everything changes, the song still plays—and in it, for a moment, so do you.

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Nostalgia and the Glasgow Joke

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Hey Mister? 

I heard a joke recently that took me back to childhood.

I was brought up on Copeland Road in Govan. On Saturdays, when Glasgow Rangers were at home, my pals and I would make a few shillings offering to watch visitors’ cars parked along the street.

A simple “Hey Mister, can I watch your car?” usually did the trick. Most folk handed over a shilling—or a half-crown on a good day—perhaps feeling slightly threatened by the idea of a ten-year-old damaging their car if they refused. But that wasn’t my intention. I just wanted a bit of extra pocket money, especially when the Friday-night allowance from my parents had already been squandered at the pictures.

That was my childhood motivation to earn.

I saw similar scenes years later in the Philippines. In Manila, young, shoeless kids would act as jeepney barkers and waving down  passing taxis for guests as  left the hotel. They’d receive a tip from both the driver and the customer. On the motorways, when the traffic ground to a halt—and it often did—kids would appear selling snacks or offering to clean your windscreen. I saw the same in Rome, too.

But I digress.

Back to the joke that kicked this all off.

A match was about to start at Ibrox. A wee street kid said,
“Hey Mister, can I look after your car?”

The man replied, “D’you see that Rottweiler in the back seat? Go near that car and he’ll bite your head off.”

As the man walked away, the kid shouted,
“Hey Mister—can your dug put oot fires?”

(Translated : Hey Mister, can your dog extinguish fires.) 

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What Did C.S Lewis Mean by "Joy"?

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The Ache of Joy

Joy is one of the most abused words in the English language. It’s been flattened and repurposed to describe the trivial: a joyride, a joystick, a throwaway feeling. But true Joy—if we’ve ever known it—cannot be summoned at will. It comes like a ghost, or grace. And when it does, it leaves us changed.

The old Gaelic phrase Tìr an Aigh means “Land of Joy.” It speaks not of this world’s fleeting highs but of something promised. A paradise. A homeland of the soul. You’ll find the phrase buried in hymns and sung in Highland verse—an echo of a people who knew what it was to long for something more, something better than here.

C.S. Lewis understood this longing. He called it Joy, but made it clear it was not the same as happiness or pleasure. It was a desire for something we can’t name—a glimpse of Eden, a pull from beyond the veil. He tells of standing beside a flowering currant bush one summer and being struck—not by memory, exactly, but by a longing for a memory, a desire for something he couldn’t hold. “It was a sensation,” he writes, “of desire; but desire for what?” The moment passed, as such moments do. And yet the longing remained—more desirable than the fulfilment of any earthly wish.

I have felt it, too. Often in the quiet, in the ordinary—a shaft of sunlight across the sea, the cry of geese across an autumn sky, a line from a song that stirs tears from nowhere. It arrives, unbidden and unsought, and disappears before we can catch our breath. What remains is not disappointment, but longing. A yearning for the yearning.

That, I believe, is a mercy.

Because this longing is a signpost. It tells me that the world is not enough. That the brokenness and beauty we live with every day are not the whole story. That Joy, in its true form, is not of this world. Not yet.

The day will come when the door that lets in those sudden shafts of light will open wide. When heaven and earth are no longer estranged but unified under Christ Jesus. When the ache is answered. When the glimpse becomes the landscape. When the memory we never knew we had becomes our eternal home.

That is Tìr an Aigh. That is Joy.

And we are not wrong to long for it.

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It's How They Do It in the Philippines

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It's How They Do It in the Philippines

I was in the Philippines some years back and two friends from my future wife’s congregation once took us on a trip to Pagudpud, up in the north of the Philippines. On the way back, we stopped at a roadside market where vendors were selling freshly barbecued fish—caught that morning from the sea.

After some friendly haggling, my Filipino friend managed to buy a whole tuna, about the length of my arm, for around £3. I stared at it, impressed.

“So… what do we do now?” I asked.

“We take it to the restaurant,” he said casually.

“You mean—what, just walk in with some tuna?”

“It’s no problem.”

A short drive later, we pulled up at a small local restaurant. My friend handed over the fish and asked them to cook up some rice, vegetables, and drinks to go with it. A little while later, we were sitting down to a feast.

That’s just how they do it in the Philippines.

I can’t imagine trying the same in the UK; just walking into a restaurant with a fish under your arm and asking them to cook it with a side of rice and greens.

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Why Be Unhappy

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Edited by Jim McCrory, Tuesday, 15 July 2025, 11:30

You need to turn from your past,

and you need to pray

 that the Lord will forgive

 the evil intent of your heart.

Acts 2:22

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Tom Buchanan from The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald stands out as a figure given to evil—racist, adulterous, arrogant, and proud. He believes in his own superiority, though it is ultimately superficial and performative. He ruins lives yet remains unrepentant and blind to his own moral decay. But this is only fiction, right? And yet, behind every story there are truths played out by the human race. 

There’s a quiet sorrow in living a life that feels off-course. You may not admit it out loud, but something gnaws at you in the early hours or when you’re alone with your thoughts. Perhaps you’ve carried anger too long. Perhaps you’ve nurtured resentment, or worse, justified it. You might even feel the world owes you something, a debt for your pain, your struggle, your story.

But what if that belief is untrue?

What if, deep down, you’ve been hiding from something more difficult to face: the harm you’ve caused, the mistakes you’ve buried, the sense of entitlement you never earned? Maybe a parent overindulged you, perhaps with good intentions. But somewhere along the way, you came to believe that others should bend to your desires, that your pain justified badness. That your privilege was proof of worth.

But true worth isn’t inherited. It isn’t given. It’s forged, by how we treat others, how we respond when we are wrong, how we grow from the truth instead of running from it.

And the truth is this: you cannot be happy while hiding from yourself.

The world does not owe us peace when we have withheld it from others. It cannot gift us joy when we trade in bitterness. And worst of all, we cannot stand tall before God while clinging to a heart that harbours hatred, manipulation, or unrepented harm.

But this is not the end. This moment—right now—can be the beginning of something far better.

You were made for more. Not for secrets, not for self-deception, not for a shallow sense of superiority. You were made to love and be loved. To be at peace with God and at peace with your neighbour. And yes, even to forgive yourself once you’ve truly faced what needs to be faced.

The Bible says God is near to the broken-hearted (Psalm 34:18). That includes those broken by their own doing. It is not weakness to weep for what you’ve done, it’s the first step to becoming whole.

You cannot rewrite your past, but you can change your course. You can own your wrongs. You can apologize, even if forgiveness isn’t granted. You can stop blaming others and start becoming the person you were always meant to be.

This journey requires humility. It requires honesty. But it also offers something incomparable: peace of mind, and the quiet joy of a life lived right.

Don’t wait for the world to change. Change your heart. Change your path. And you will find that happiness, the real kind, the kind that holds up even in storms, has been waiting for you all along.

God has not given up on you. Don’t give up on yourself. Today is a good day to begin again.

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Here I Stand, in Scandinavia

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Here I Stand in Scandinavia

I must have been twelve or thirteen when my music teacher wheeled the record player into our classroom and dropped the needle onto something that would stay with me all my life. The music of Edvard Grieg, and later Sibelius, came spilling out—strange, haunting, majestic. It wasn’t just sound. It was a feeling. As the notes of Morning Mood drifted through the room, I felt something stir, something I couldn’t name then. A kind of ache. A homesickness for a place I’d never been.

That place was Scandinavia.

At the time, I didn’t understand why the music moved me so deeply. I only knew that it reached into some forgotten room of my soul and opened the window wide. The vast fjords, the northern lights, the snow-covered pines—I hadn’t seen them, but I had. I carried them inside me like a memory from another life.

Years later, I found listened carefully to the lyrics of their song, Scandinavia, that gave words to that childhood ache: Scandinavia. I listened and was undone. “Here we stand in Scandinavia,” it begins, a simple line, yet one that placed me not just on a map, but in a moment. A moment thick with memory and mystery.

The song isn’t about tourism. It’s not about hiking trails or Viking museums. It’s about something far deeper: the longing for belonging. A yearning not just for a land, but for a homeland of the soul.

"We watched it rise / In morning skies of fire and wine / The boats that carried us / Young golden lives / Leaving on a rising tide…"

That verse brought back so much. Youth. Departure. The feeling of setting out, wide-eyed, onto life’s open sea, hoping the tide will carry you to meaning, to love, to purpose. But perhaps we’re all really searching for one thing: home.

And not necessarily the one we were born into.

The phrase that haunts the chorus—"Here we stand"—is both declaration and confession. We’re standing, yes. But where? In a landscape that both is and isn't ours. Scandinavia becomes symbolic. A place of memory, of spiritual resonance. Not a destination on a cruise itinerary, but a metaphor for something higher, purer, more eternal ; the soul's destiny.

Here the song becomes prayer. The kind of prayer you whisper without realizing it’s a prayer at all. It’s the kind of longing that can’t be satisfied by geography or even human love. It’s the ache that C.S. Lewis once called “the scent of a flower we have not found, the echo of a tune we have not heard, news from a country we have never visited.”

That’s what Grieg's music stirred in me all those years ago. And what Runrig reawakened. I see now that what I felt wasn’t just homesickness for Norway or Finland—it was homesickness for another world entirely. The kind of world that Isaiah spoke of when he wrote of deserts blooming and swords beaten into ploughshares. A world where the cold ache of separation is finally healed.

I’ve come to believe that this deep yearning we carry—the one we find in art, music, poetry—is not weakness. It’s not sentimentalism. It’s evidence. Evidence that we are made for something more. For a Kingdom that is not of this world, yet not far from any one of us.

The songwriter of Scandinavia, like many poets and musicians before him, touches something eternal. And like a poem, it becomes part of the reader who engages with it. The listener is drawn into the same river of longing. That current, which begins in the soul, runs through every human heart and finds its source not in nostalgia, but in promise.

“There’s nothing new beneath the sun,” the song says, echoing Ecclesiastes. And it’s true. This yearning isn’t new. But it’s fresh each time we feel it. Every time music moves us, or a northern sky takes our breath away, or a word of Scripture stirs our spirit—we are reminded. We are not yet home.

But we will be.

And in the meantime, here we stand—in Scandinavia, or wherever our feet happen to be—hearts tuned to the music of another world.

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A Quart of Wheat for a Denarius

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"A quart of wheat for a denarius, and three quarts of barley for a denarius,

and do not harm the oil and wine." — Revelation 6:6 (BSB)

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A Quart of Wheat for a Denarius

L. P. Hartley once wrote in The Go-Between, "The past is a foreign country; they do things differently there."
We like to think we've moved on. In our modern age of data, satellites, and instant answers, we walk with the confident gait of the enlightened. We scoff at ancient rituals and mock the gods of the past, shaking our heads at how gullible people once were. But are we so different?

There is a god that has followed us through the ages.
Mamona (מָמוֹנָא), the Aramaic term from long ago, still breathes beneath our economies and ambitions. It doesn’t ask for incense or chanting—it demands loyalty through greed, shortcuts, deception, and exploitation.
We see its influence in the trader who overcharges, the builder who cuts corners, the salesman who promises what he cannot deliver. It's there in the man who robs his own grandmother of her savings, in the corrupt politician whose pockets are full while his conscience is empty, in the corporations lobbying against climate action while the planet burns.

Mamona—money, wealth, greed—has become more than currency. It is a spirit. A force. A false god.
No wonder it’s listed among the great powers that corrupt. No wonder Revelation paints a chilling picture of its grip:
"A quart of wheat for a denarius..."—a day’s wages for a single meal—while the wealthy plead, "Do not harm the oil and wine."
The poor are left to starve; the rich fear for their luxuries.

Is it any different today? We switch on the news and see children with hollow eyes and empty bowls, their faces swarmed by flies. Meanwhile, markets fret over fine wine and artisanal produce. We live in a world where food is a commodity, not a right, and Mamona is the name we dare not speak.

But it’s not too late to think again.
What if we turned our backs on this false god? What if we loosened its grip on our hearts and lifted our eyes to something higher—compassion, justice, mercy? What if, instead of guarding the oil and wine, we poured it out for others?

The past may be a foreign country. But the future is ours to shape. Let us not bow to Mamona. Let us choose love.

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The Soft Glow of Natsukashii

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The Soft Glow of Natsukashii

The brain has that ability to through us curve balls. This morning as I woke, a sweet little memory popped out of nowhere. We were eleven. Declan and I went to see a film called The Perils of Pauline (1967) in the Plaza Cinema in Govan, Glasgow. We were both quiet boys, reflective types who didn’t say much to each other on the walk home. But the next evening, he asked, “What do you want to do? Shall we go back and see the movie?”

And so, we did, every evening that week.

The truth was, we were both smitten with the actress, though neither of us dared admit it. That kind of confession was too delicate, too exposing, for two young boys navigating the cusp of adolescence.

I remembered it this morning at six, as I read about the Japanese word natsukashii—a word that holds the warmth of cherished memories, the kind that rise unexpectedly, like mist from the fields, softening everything they touch.

 

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The Currency of Kindness

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Whoever cares for the poor makes a loan

 to the Eternal;

    such kindness will be repaid in full 

and with interest.

Proverbs 19:17

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The Currency of Kindness

I’m sitting in my car tonight and  watching people come and go, as a young man holds out his cup, hoping for a little help. He isn’t drunk or high. That’s clear. But as evening begins to settle, there’s an urgency in his voice — a quiet desperation — as he tries to gather the £20 or so he needs for a bed in the hostel before nightfall.

It’s 31 degrees in Scotland today — a rare, baking heat — and he’s been sitting there for hours in the blistering sun. Some passers-by drop coins into his polystyrene cup. Others walk past, eyes averted. But it’s not enough. You can see the despair in the lines etched on his face.

We so easily make excuses: “He’s probably an addict,” we say, or, “It’s their own fault.” And just like that, we talk ourselves out of compassion. But tell me — if someone is willing to sit for hours in that heat, humbling themselves for the chance of a bed and a shower, how can we justify walking by?

Many young people find themselves in desperate situations through no fault of their own. Life can unravel quickly. A home lost. A relationship broken. A support system gone. Sometimes, all that stands between someone and despair is a kind stranger.

We don’t give to feel good, albeit we do. We don’t give for that adrenalin rush; we don’t give to obtain kudos from God. We give because we are part of a human race that has the quality of selfless love. But in that act of unselfish love, God is in our debt. Try and get your head around that promise from God.

Whoever cares for the poor makes a loan to the Eternal;
    such kindness will be repaid in full and with interest.

Proverbs 19:17

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And They All Lived Happily Ever After: The Dénouement

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And They All Lived Happily Ever After: The Dénouement

One of the most enduring gifts my father left me before he passed away was the joy of books. Not just the stories themselves, but the happiness and hope they could carry—sometimes when you needed it most.

I grew up in Govan, a shipyard town in Glasgow. I must have been about seven when I wandered into The Modern Book Shop, a quiet little place that sold second-hand books and comics. That day, a book’s cover caught my eye. Something about the image pulled me in. I opened it and read the first lines of the first chapter:

"Now it happened that Mr Cherry, the carpenter, found a piece of wood that laughed and cried like a child."

And just like that, I was in. The story of Pinocchio had begun.

We all know the tale, how a wooden puppet longs to become a real boy. But do you remember how it ends?

After being lied to, tricked, nearly killed, and running from every bit of responsibility, Pinocchio changes. He begins to care. He sacrifices. He works hard. He chooses love and duty over selfishness. And in doing so, he transforms—not just in form, but in spirit. He wakes up human, and the puppet body is left behind, useless now. He says:

"How funny I was when I was a puppet! And how glad I am that I’ve become a real boy!"

It’s the classic “happily ever after.” But it’s more than that.

Every powerful story follows this same shape—the hero’s journey. Something breaks. Things go wrong. The hero struggles, fails, grows. And eventually, there’s a resolution. A turning point. A moment of justice. We need that resolution. Without it, stories feel incomplete—like the soul of the tale was stolen.

Martin Luther King Jr. once said, “The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice.” That’s more than a comforting thought. It speaks to something we instinctively understand we live in a moral universe. And our stories—especially the ones that endure—reflect that.

Imagine if the Fairy had turned Pinocchio back into a block of wood. If everything he had learned, all the growth and love and sacrifice, had been erased. We would have closed the book angry. Empty. Betrayed. Because stories aren’t just entertainment. They’re mirrors of something bigger.

Take the Bible, for example. In Genesis, humanity is given a task: to make the earth a paradise. Then, everything breaks. Pain enters. Struggle begins. But it doesn’t end there. Jesus steps in, offering hope, offering restoration. “You will be with me in paradise,” he promises. And in Revelation, that promise comes full circle into the dénouement :

“See, the home of God is with His people.
He will live among them;
They will be His people,
And God Himself will be with them.
He will wipe away every tear from their eyes.
Death will be no more;
Mourning no more, crying no more, pain no more,
For the first things have gone away.”

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This is the ultimate dénouement. Paradise lost, paradise regained.

So maybe the reason we crave resolution in stories is because, deep down, we’re wired for one ourselves. We believe that wrongs can be righted. That the struggle means something. That even in the darkest chapters, the ending is worth waiting for.

That’s the legacy my father left me. A quiet kind of faith hidden in the pages of a second-hand book.

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Who is my neighbour?

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“Human beings are members of a whole,
In creation of one essence and soul.
If one member is afflicted with pain,
Other members uneasy will remain.”
—Saadi Shirazi

 

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These words by the Persian poet Saadi have echoed across centuries and cultures for a reason. They offer a clear and enduring truth: to be human is to be bound to others. Not by preference, but by nature. We belong to one another.

In this shrinking world, where a crisis in one country can ripple instantly across continents, his image of humanity as one body is not poetic exaggeration. It’s reality. What one person suffers, the rest of us should feel. Not out of sentimentality, but out of shared essence.

We often speak of the world as a global village. But Saadi reminds us it’s not just a village of trade, travel, and technology; it’s a village of souls. And within it are people who deserve our love and compassion, not because they’re familiar, but because they’re human.

This kinship crosses all lines. The child in Gaza, the grandmother in Glasgow, the teacher in Tehran, we are connected. When one part of the body is wounded, the rest cannot be well. Paul expressed the same truth in his letter to the Corinthians: “If one part suffers, every part suffers with it.”

This is the essence of moral life: feeling for others as for us. It’s not about grand gestures. It’s about refusing to grow indifferent. About seeing others not as strangers, but neighbours. Not as burdens, but brothers and sisters.

To be human is to remember we are not islands. We are a village.
And in that village, love is not optional.
It is the pulse of a living soul.


The Parable of the Good Samaritan

One day an expert in the law stood up to test Him. “Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?”

“What is written in the Law?” Jesus replied. “How do you read it?”

He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind,’ and ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’”

“You have answered correctly,” Jesus said. “Do this and you will live.”

But wanting to justify himself, he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?”

Jesus took up this question and said, “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho when he fell into the hands of robbers. They stripped him, beat him, and went away, leaving him half dead.

Now by chance a priest was going down the same road, but when he saw him, he passed by on the other side.

So too, when a Levite came to that spot and saw him, he passed by on the other side.

But a Samaritan on a journey came upon him, and when he saw him, he had compassion. He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put him on his own animal, brought him to an inn, and took care of him.

The next day he took out two denarii and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Take care of him,’ he said, ‘and on my return I will repay you for any additional expense.’

Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?”

“The one who showed him mercy,” replied the expert in the law.

Then Jesus told him, “Go and do likewise.”

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MA Creative Writing’s Best-Kept Secret

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MA Creative Writing’s Best-Kept Secret

One of the most liberating discoveries during the MA in Creative Writing was being introduced to the personal essay. For me, it was nothing short of a breakthrough—something that changed everything. I chose to specialise on the form rather than fiction, poetry or drama. Let me explain.

There’s a breath-taking scene in Nikita Mikhalkov’s film Urga that captures the feeling perfectly. The camera opens on a vast, open field of emerald grass. At first, there’s only a hint of movement in the distance. Then the image slowly sharpens—hoofbeats, dust hanging in the air, the tension building—until finally, we see him: Gombo, a rugged Mongolian herdsman on horseback, powerful and present at the centre of the screen.

That’s what writing a personal essay feels like. You start with something elusive—a word like nostalgia, a simple sentence like “It happened like this”, or a striking image like Avril Paton’s Windows in the West. At first, you don't quite know where you’re going. But that’s okay. The beauty of the personal essay is in the wandering. You follow your thoughts as they stretch out across the landscape. And slowly, a shape begins to form.

You don’t need a map. You just need to start. The journey might look like a meander or a pilgrimage, depending on your tone or theme. At times it may feel like you're heading nowhere. But trust me—the scenery is worth it. And often, in the quiet act of writing, the path reveals itself.

What begins as a blurred impression becomes a destination through the alchemy of editing. Each draft brings you closer. You’re not lost; you’re refining. And eventually, clarity comes, like the horizon appearing after a long ascent.

The personal essay can carry all that you bring to it: your memories, questions, musings, fears, even your worldview. For me, discovering this form felt like stepping out of a cage. I had finally found a space for my voice, a place where all the threads of my thinking and experience could weave together with meaning.

If you’re considering where to focus your creative energy, let the personal essay tempt you. It’s more than a writing form—it’s a way of thinking, a way of seeing. And if you let it, it might just change your path too.

 

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The Moral Issue Behind God's Permission of Evil

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For the eyes of the LORD roam to and fro over all the earth,

to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose hearts are fully devoted to Him. 

2 Chronicled 16:9

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The Moral Issue Behind Evil

Why does God allow evil? It’s a question that echoes through time, across cultures and creeds, and finds a voice in every broken heart. But perhaps it's the wrong question. Perhaps we should be asking: What does evil reveal?

Take your teenage son or daughter. At home, they may be polite, devout, and upright. But what about when they’re alone? Or out with friends, away from your watchful eye? Sometimes, only in your absence will their true character emerge. You might never know who they really are unless you could observe them incognito.

And that, perhaps, is how it goes with God.

There’s a verse in Scripture that says, “For the eyes of the LORD roam to and fro over all the earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose hearts are fully devoted to Him. ” (2 Chronicles 16:9). This is not the surveillance of a tyrant but the quiet attentiveness of a Father; one who chooses, for a time, to allow freedom. Why? Because only in freedom can love and loyalty be real.

We are on a level playing field. There is no visible hand of God reaching into every moment to stop the liar, the thief, or the tyrant. And in that “absence,” something holy is taking place: our loyalty is being tested. Not just yours or mine, but humanity, past, present and future. The same moral test that was once laid before our first parents in Eden still lingers. The serpent’s whisper wasn’t a contest of strength, it was a question of loyalty. “Did God really say…?” was not a call to arms, but a challenge to trust.

It was the same with Job. The accuser didn’t say, “Let’s see who is stronger—God or me.” That’s easy. Strength can be measured in a moment. Arm-wrestle a man and you’ll soon find the stronger one. But say, “I am more loyal, more honest, more faithful than you,” and suddenly the proof takes a lifetime. This is the moral question at the heart of our suffering: Will we remain loyal to a God we cannot always see, touch, or understand?

This is the drama of life—not played out in cosmic battlefields but in quiet acts of courage, hidden faithfulness, and the refusal to betray love even in darkness. The Apostle Paul touched on this when he wrote ” For the creation was subjected to futility, not by its own will, but because of the One who subjected it, in hope (Romans 8:20). Not by accident or chaos, but by design. This futility, this ache we feel for justice and peace and permanence, is not without purpose. It sharpens the soul. It exposes the heart. And it makes space for faith.

God does not want robotic worship or coerced allegiance. He wants to know, do we love Him even when we don’t see Him? Will we walk the right path when no one is looking? Will we remain true in the desert, not just in the garden?

There will come a time when the hidden things are brought into the light, when the testing ends and the eyes of the Father meet ours again. Until then, we live in the tension—between absence and presence, doubt and faith, struggle and hope. But this life is not without meaning. It is the proving ground of the heart. The battle is not about power—it never was. It is about love. About loyalty.

And love that endures when it would be easier to walk away. that is the kind of love that lasts forever.

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On the Loss of a Child

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I cannot begin to capture the depth of grief experienced by parents who lose a child. Chiyo-ni’s haiku, which speaks of a child catching dragonflies, captures a tender moment of innocence and play. Yet beneath its simplicity lies a quiet ache of distance and loss—Chiyo-ni had lost her own child, whom she affectionately called Dragonfly Catcher. The haiku, as a poetic form, often distills life’s most profound moments, grounding them in nature’s fleeting beauty.

"Dragonfly catcher,

how far have you gone today

in your wandering?"

I guess Chiyo-ni found some solace in penning her thoughts and grief on the written page. As a Christian, I believe in the grand scheme of things a great "Renewal" of life  will take place,

When a man dies, will he live again?

All the days of my hard service I will wait,

until my renewal comes.

Job 14:14

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Too Young to Choose It

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Too Young to Choose It

The '70s were the birth of the supermarkets. Safeway, the American chain, was expanding into Scotland. I worked the night shift at Paisley Road West while wondering what choices to make in life. One evening, we had a new employee. 

The night shift procedure was routine: pull out the pallets of stock, spot them in the appropriate aisles, price and pack the items. By the time the stock was cleared—around 3 a.m.—the weariness of the night overwhelmed us. The numbing fatigue was exasperated by the gentle rhythm of the David Bowie song on the radio: “You're too old to lose it, too young to choose it.”

“Okay, you two, start washing the floor,” the night manager said to me and the new boy.

“What part?” the new boy asked.

“All of it,” the manager replied.

The new boy took in a panoramic view of the floor and asked, “All that?” with a look of disbelief.

“All of it,” the boss repeated.

“I’m out of here. I’m getting my jacket.”

He walked into the darkness. A few moments later, he banged on the plate-glass window and shouted, “You’re all a bunch of losers!”

We all turned away and got on with the work, singing “You’re a rock and roll suicide” to the chorus of Bowie’s song. I then mused over the remaining hours: What will I do with my life?

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Living on an Island

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"When it is dark enough, you can see the stars."

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Today, I got talking with a new-found friend and one of the subjects was Rothesay and the Island of Bute. I have a nostalgia for this island that runs deep in my heart that takes me back to a childhood epiphany that is embedded in my memory,

I suppose it must have been the late summer of 1962, Telstar by the Tornadoes had been playing on the radio. I spent the summer days on the idyllic Island of Bute on Scotland’s west coast. We had a rural cabin. It had no running water or electricity. My job was to fill up the water containers from the communal well. Cows would cautiously approach and stare. The smaller calves would shuffle through for front-row viewing. I found their curiosity compelling.

At dusk, we would light paraffin lamps to illuminate the nights. My father would read children’s books borrowed from the library: Chinese Folk Tales, Heidi and 1001 Nights. We were all ears as we ate freshly made pancakes with homemade jam and washed down with small glasses of sweet stout. The lamp caused a sibilant sound as it burned up kerosene. It flickered and fostered sleepiness. It finally slumbered for the evening, and we would retire.

I lay there in my bed watching the stars cascading through the window; all of them. And I wondered if the Chinese farmer boys, or the Bedouin shepherd boys or the milk maids in the Swiss mountains were seeing and feeling the sense of awe that I felt in my heart as the universe entered in.

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Childhood memories like that visited me often and reminded me of my spiritual awareness from an early age, albeit in my own childish way.

I had an ache to know who created the stars, the moon, and the beautiful island that was so distant from my industrial town where idle men lingered on street corners like characters from a Lowry painting. Where post-war tenements blocked natural light. Where unkempt dogs savaged through bins for scraps. Where it always seemed, there was better places to be raised.

Years later I read the following verse from the Bible,

When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers,

the moon and the stars, which you have ordained.

what is man, that you think of him?

What is the son of man, that you care for him?

— Psalm 8:3, 4.

 

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A Govan Prayer Rising

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A Prayer in Govan

One Saturday being at a loose end whilst my wife was working, I went walking through Govan, tracing the steps of my childhood with that odd blend of nostalgia and ache. Fourteen years of early life were lived here, and though the skyline has shifted, and the shops have changed hands, no Curley’s, no Woolworth’s and no Modern Bookshop. The later, a sanctuary for a child escaping through poverty and a sense of adventure in comics.

The bones of the place remain familiar. It was one of those quiet, reflective strolls—no agenda, just memory. Drawn by the stillness of the place, I wandered into the grounds of the old church at Govan Cross to see the ancient stones, artifacts of history.  I wasn’t even sure if the church was still functioning or simply a monument to what once was. It had that solemn presence old churches carry—stone thick with prayers, weathered by time.

I didn’t expect to meet anyone, but within minutes I was in conversation with three strangers—a woman from Peru, a woman from the United States, and a man who, after listening quietly for a while, mentioned he was the minister of the Govan Free Church.

We spoke for a little while—of this and that, life, place, belonging. Somewhere in that natural flow of conversation, I shared my health condition—neuroendocrine cancer, and how it had taken a stealthy toll, spreading to other organs. I hadn’t intended to go there, but sometimes the truth just slips out when the company is kind.

There was no dramatic reaction. Just quiet listening. Eyes that didn't flinch. A nod of understanding.

Sometime later, I heard from someone that the minister had taken my name to their weekly prayer meeting and he had prayed for me.

It moved me more than I can say.

There’s something profound about that kind of gesture. In a world that’s often loud and fast and transactional, it was a moment of pure human kindness. Unasked for. Unobligated. Offered anyway in an act of Christian love.

Prayer, after all, is not just words spoken into the air. It’s an act of care. Of pause. Of bringing someone else's name before God with reverence and hope.

That day in Govan, the town of my boyhood gave me more than memory. It gave me grace. In the form of strangers. In the form of a prayer.

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From Bamburgh to Stavanger: A Memory Not Lost at Sea

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Edited by Jim McCrory, Sunday, 13 July 2025, 11:34

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From Bamburgh to Stavanger: A Memory Not Lost at Sea

It’s Thursday just passed and I’m standing with Bamburgh Castle at my back. Its ancient stones are steeped in history, yet I’m not drawn to look behind me. My eyes are fixed on the sea. North-east, to be exact. That invisible line across the water stretches toward Stavanger, where I lived for a fleeting time during what could only be described, to borrow from Dickens, as the best of times and the worst of times.

But this moment isn’t about castles or history. It’s about something smaller and more enduring; the quiet goodness that lives in human connection.

I’m walking the shoreline with family and friends. The wind on Sola beach is gentle and like the laughter, warm. A young girl from Sandnes walks beside me; her family having been so hospitable to us during our time in Norway. She’s a teenager, bright-eyed and full of the same enthusiasm for music that once filled me. We swap stories and song titles, lost in the shared joy of discovering kindred taste and poetic lyrics.

Later, I give her a cassette of my all-time top twenty songs. Just a little plastic box with a handwritten label. At the time, it felt ordinary. But sometime afterward, her mother tells me that her daughter now falls asleep each night to the gentle music captured on the cassette.

Even now, I feel a hush inside when I remember that. The thought of those songs becoming a lullaby, a comfort, a thread between our human connection. Music carrying a presence, even after I was gone.

That was in 1999. I returned to Scotland, and life and distance, as it often does, scattered our connection with the family. I lost contact with the family. Still, I wonder. That young girl will be in her forties now. Perhaps she has children of her own. I wonder if they too fall asleep to music. I wonder if, in some way, the kindness shown to me, the conversation on that beach, the cassette passed from hand to hand, still echoes in their lives.

Because what are we, really, is determined in our small acts of goodness.  A song shared. A moment of hospitality. A memory that lingers. So much of life feels fleeting, but these moments — they have a way of outlasting us.

And if we are made in the image of something eternal, perhaps it is this that reflects it most clearly. The impulse to give. To comfort. To be remembered not for what we built or achieved, but for how we loved, and how we made others feel safe enough to fall asleep.

 

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