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The Quiet Loss of Life

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The Quiet Loss of Life

Picture yourself in a laboratory. Beneath the lens, a single cell pulses with energy. It is alive, vibrant, filled with possibility. Then, suddenly, it ceases. What has disappeared? Only one among trillions, and yet something essential has slipped away. We call it "life" but we cannot grasp its meaning.  No experiment, no human skill, can summon it back. Its life has ended, leaving us with mystery and silence.

I have been reflecting on this because, just over a week ago, my own body faltered in a way that nearly carried me into oblivion. I know the moment will return; it comes for all of us. When it does, I hope to stretch out my arms and whisper, as Stephen the martyr once did, “Heavenly Father, receive my spirit.”

It will happen to you too. Just like that cell under the microscope, one day you will slip quietly from this world.

That truth casts a sobering light on the way we live. The silly arguments, the grudges that harden into bitterness, the endless scramble for wealth or recognition—how hollow they seem in the face of our mortality. The hate and hostility that people indulge in, not pausing to consider that death will one day demand them, will surely leave them wanting in the eyes of their Creator.

And yet, the Scriptures remind us that even the smallest losses matter. Jesus spoke of sparrows sold for almost nothing, yet not one falls to the ground without God’s awareness. Life, however overlooked by others, is noticed. Life is valued.

Stephen, as stones rained down upon him, did not cling desperately to survival but entrusted himself to Christ with the words, “Receive my spirit.” His fragile life was slipping away, but he believed it was secure in God’s hands. Centuries earlier, Job had asked the haunting question: If a man dies, will he live again? His answer was not despair but hope—he would wait for renewal. Both Stephen and Job faced mortality with the conviction that life is not extinguished but kept, safeguarded in what Scripture calls the Book of Life.

We did not kindle the spark within us, nor do we sustain it. Life is gift, not possession. Which leads us to the deeper questions: What does it truly mean to be alive? And inseparably, what does it mean to be human?

The Scriptures sketch a picture that invites us to ponder. To be human is first to be beloved creation. The psalmist marvels that the Maker of stars and galaxies should care for us, crowning us with honour. Our smallness does not render us insignificant; it highlights the care of God. To be human is also to be moral beings, shaped by the breath of God breathed into us, endowed with conscience and choice. Sometimes we stumble, sometimes we shine, but always our freedom is part of our dignity.

At the same time, we are dependent yet eternal. The psalmist reminds us we are dust—frail, fleeting, easily broken. And yet Ecclesiastes tells us eternity has been set in our hearts. That paradox—mortal yet made for more—defines how God sees us. Fallen, yes, prone to wander, yet redeemable through Christ, who calls us not merely sinners but sons and daughters, capable of renewal and reconciliation. And finally, we are stewards and witnesses, entrusted with the earth and with each other, called to reflect His justice, His kindness, and His humility.

Life is quiet, often overlooked, yet immeasurably precious. To see it rightly is to recognize that the cell beneath the lens, the sparrow in the sky, the neighbour beside us, and even our own breath—all are gifts sustained by God. We live in the tension of fragility and eternity, dust and spirit, loss, and hope.

And so, I ask you to consider: in the brief time you are given, how will you live?

For what is the hope of the godless when he is cut off,
When God requires his life?

Will God hear his cry
When distress comes upon him?

Will he take delight in the Almighty?
Will he call on God at all times?

Job 27: 8-10

 

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The Flame That Will Not Die

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The Flame That Will Not Die

 “But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you, and you will be My witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”  — Acts 1

It may be the most powerful prophecy in all of scripture. From a fragile band of men and women, still reeling from the death of their Teacher, would spring a commission that has rippled across centuries like concentric circles widening on a still lake. Their voices, once whispers in the backstreets of Jerusalem, now echo in every land beneath the sun.

When Jesus taught, He painted with words the way an artist works with light and shadow. He drew fishers into the kingdom with nets of story, sowed seeds of truth in soil-hardened hearts, and lifted the weary with images of lilies and sparrows. He did not lecture coldly; He set imaginations on fire. That is why I, in my own faltering way, write through story and illustration. To reach the spirit, one must first touch the heart.

When I learned to write, I made a vow to our Creator: that my words would not merely fill pages but help souls glimpse eternity. Blaise Pascal spoke of an “infinite abyss” within us, a hollow no earthly treasure can fill. There is, indeed, a God-shaped hole in every human being. Some try to cram it with gold, with pleasure, with applause and by raising themselves by putting others down, but they remain as empty as a begger’s pocket. Only the living water of God can fill it to the brim.

So, I write not to lecture but to invite—to whisper across the void in another person’s heart, “Have you considered this? Could there be more than this life?”

And the evidence humbles me. Each day, between 3,000 and 10,000 souls pass through these pages. That is not a statistic; it is a multitude of beating hearts, searching minds, and weary spirits who sense—whether faintly or fiercely—that life cannot be reduced to chance and consumption.

For decades, the West sank into a trough of indifference, lulled by the hollow lullabies of materialism. We were told that science had slain wonder, that atheism had dethroned God, that selfishness was freedom. But those songs have grown thin. Their melodies are brittle, like cracked shells that cannot protect the life within. And so, quietly but unmistakably, people are stirring. They are climbing out of the doldrums, lifting their faces toward the light again, asking questions that pierce through cynicism.

Yet even as this awakening begins, Christianity faces storms—persecution abroad, apathy at home, and the shallow shadow of nominal faith that leaves no imprint on a life. But the same Spirit who breathed fire into fearful fishers still moves. The flame is not out; it only waits for willing hearts to carry it forward, as it has done from that first upper room to the ends of the earth.

 

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Two Words That Belong to the Same Party

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Two Words That Belong to the Same Party

Some words meet like strangers at a gathering—polite, reserved, exchanging glances across the room but never quite drawing near. Others, however, seem destined for each other. They gravitate toward the same table, not sharing a language but a spirit. Ephemeral and Qanuk are such words.

The first, from Greek, captures the brevity of a thing that lasts only a day, a spark flaring briefly on the vast canvas of time. The second, drawn from Inuit tongues, names a single snowflake—fragile, luminous, unrepeatable. Apart, they are striking. Together, they feel less like vocabulary and more like companions who, upon meeting, recognise themselves in each other.

A snowflake is the perfect emblem of transience: falling, shimmering, and vanishing into memory. Yet in its brief descent, it is wholly itself—crafted with mathematical precision that will never occur again. So it is with human life: fleeting in duration, intricate in design. The Greeks captured the brevity, the Inuit, the singularity. What one word lacked, the other supplied. Together they tell a fuller truth—that each moment is both passing and unique, irreducible and worthy of attention.

This is why, to me, these words belong at the same party. They are not content with small talk. They remind us of the delicate miracle of existence. They sit side by side, raising a quiet toast to impermanence and beauty, whispering that what vanishes still carries weight, and that in every passing instant there lingers a trace of the eternal.

Perhaps that is why they draw me in—because they speak not only of snowflakes and seconds, but of souls. Each of us is a qanuk: brief in the measure of days, yet no less real for being ephemeral. And if such words belong together, perhaps so do we.

Scripture echoes this truth. Psalm 103 reminds us: “As for man, his days are like grass; he flourishes like a flower of the field; for the wind passes over it, and it is gone, and its place knows it no more.” And yet, within that transience the hand of eternity is within our grasp. Jesus proclaims,  “Truly, truly, I tell you, he who believes has eternal life” (John 6:47).

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Who Can I Trust?

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Trust 

Mouths don’t empty themselves unless ears are sympathetic and knowing.


Zora Neale Hurston’s words strike at the heart of trust. They remind me that speaking is not merely the act of moving the lips but of revealing the soul. To speak honestly, we need to believe the listener is kind, attentive, and free of malice. Without that trust, silence feels safer.

There are few people I trust. I withdraw from those who gossip, stir up strife, or fabricate stories. Words used recklessly wound the spirit and poison the atmosphere. I’ve also learned to distance myself from those who go through life in a minor key, whose cynicism and bitterness drag down others. Such company clouds the mind and burdens the heart.

I remember one day walking with a friend. The sea was calm, the gulls floating in the air as though suspended by invisible threads. Something about that quiet morning, the steady rhythm of our steps, and the absence of judgment in his presence made me speak of a grief I had carried for years. I had not intended to, but the words came, almost surprising myself. His silence was not empty but attentive; a sympathetic ear that allowed the mouth to empty itself. I walked home lighter that day, reminded that trust, when given wisely, is like setting down a heavy stone.

Of course, this guardedness sometimes makes people feel rejected. Withdrawal is easily misunderstood, and those who feel left out may turn their hurt into anger. But I cannot live at the mercy of every reaction. I would rather walk the quiet road of Psalm 1:

“Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.
But his delight is in the law of the Lord,
and on his law he meditates day and night.”

The psalmist points to a pathway of rootedness; a life nourished by trust in God rather than the shifting soil of human chatter. To delight in God’s law is to rest in His wisdom, to trust that His ear is always sympathetic and knowing, even when human ears are not.

Trust, then, becomes a sacred choice. I give it sparingly, not out of bitterness, but out of discernment. I want to place my words in the care of those who will not trample them but treasure them. To share myself fully is a gift, and gifts deserve reverent hands.

So, I keep company with the psalmist and with those rare few who listen well. For in the presence of a truly sympathetic ear, the mouth empties its burdens, the soul feels lighter, and trust finds a home.

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Growing Up in the Gorbals

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The Value of Biography: Learning from Ralph Glasser and the Gorbals

Some years ago, I asked a friend who was an avid reader what his favourite book was. It was Ralph Glasser’s Growing Up in the Gorbals. I grew up in Govan, close to the Gorbals in Glasgow, and when I read the book, I found myself drawn into a world that felt eerily familiar, though his memories belong to an earlier generation, the contours of struggle, resilience, and community he describes echo the environment that shaped my own early years. This is the unique power of biography: it allows us not only to step into another life, but also to hold up a mirror to our own.

To grow up in Glasgow’s Gorbals in the early twentieth century was to be shaped by forces both crushing and clarifying. Ralph Glasser’s memoir offers not just a story of personal survival, but a portrait of a world now vanished; a slum whose crumbling tenements were both a crucible of hardship and a school of resilience. His narrative, raw and unsentimental, forces us to look at poverty not as an abstract statistic but as a lived reality of draughts whistling through broken windows, burst pipes dripping onto damp floors, and the pervasive sense that life was lived one step ahead of collapse.

Born into a Jewish immigrant family in 1916, Glasser’s early life was marked by loss: his mother died when he was only six, and his father, undone by grief and gambling, struggled to hold the family together. Yet the book is not one of despair. What makes Glasser’s memoir compelling is his refusal to let deprivation dominate the story. Instead, he recalls his childhood with clarity, sometimes even with humour, showing that even in the bleakest of environments, the human spirit could spark with wit, ambition, and small joys.

The Gorbals themselves form a character in the narrative; a place infamous for overcrowding and poverty, yet rich in the rough music of community. Tenement closes echoed with quarrels, gossip, and the laughter of children playing amid the grime. For outsiders, the Gorbals was a byword for deprivation; for those who lived there, it was the world entire. Glasser paints this paradox vividly: the slum as both prison and proving ground, oppressive yet formative.

At its heart, Growing Up in the Gorbals is a meditation on possibility. That a boy from such conditions could, through education and unyielding determination, eventually walk the quads of Oxford is nothing short of remarkable. It is a story that challenges our assumptions about class, opportunity, and destiny. In Glasser’s life, we see how intelligence and grit can sometimes crack open doors that poverty has bolted shut.

Yet the book is not just about individual triumph. It is also social testimony, preserving the memory of a vanished Glasgow. The Gorbals, with its mix of Scots, Jews, Irish, and other immigrant communities, was a microcosm of survival against the odds. To read Glasser’s account is to be reminded that the modern city, with all its prosperity and glass-fronted buildings, rests upon layers of forgotten struggle.

For students of writing, this is where biography’s value lies. As Virginia Woolf observed in her essay The New Biography (1927), the task of life-writing is not merely to arrange facts but to capture the “semi-transparent envelope” of personality,  the elusive interplay of memory, feeling, and circumstance. Glasser achieves this by situating his private griefs and ambitions against the larger backdrop of a community in decline. He shows us how biography works at two levels simultaneously: it reveals the idiosyncrasies of one life, and it preserves the atmosphere of a whole world.

Contemporary theorists of life-writing, such as Hermione Lee, remind us that biography is also an act of interpretation: the biographer (or autobiographer) selects, frames, and shapes a life into narrative. Students of writing can learn from Glasser’s choices, his refusal to sentimentalise poverty, his ear for dialect, his willingness to balance humour with hardship. These are not only narrative techniques but also ethical decisions about how to tell the truth of a life.

There is also a quiet universality in Glasser’s story. While the details are specific — Jewish customs, Glasgow dialect, the hum of a factory,  the themes are timeless: the fragility of childhood, the ache of loss, the resilience that hardship can teach. His writing asks us to consider what truly shapes a person: circumstance, community, or character. Perhaps, as Glasser shows, it is all three, woven inseparably together.

Ultimately, Growing Up in the Gorbals is less about poverty than about dignity. It testifies that even in the most neglected corners of society, human beings remain luminous with potential. For those studying writing, it offers a model of biography’s double gift: it preserves the singularity of a life while illuminating the shared conditions of humanity. To read — and to write — biography is to engage in an act of preservation and recognition. When I read Glasser, I hear not only his voice but also the echoes of my own community. His book reminds me, and should remind all of us who write, that biography is never about one life. It is about how one life illuminates many.

 

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Over the Gobi at Dusk

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Over the Gobi at Dusk

Somewhere between Manila and Amsterdam, the plane slipped into evening and crossed the Gobi Desert. I stared down for more than an hour and still we had not passed it. Below stretched a vastness that seemed unending, an ocean of earth in ochres and greys, ridges and plains brushed by the last light of day. From above it appeared empty, yet I could not help but wonder about the lives being lived down there.

I thought of families in their gers, the round felt dwellings scattered like white shells across the land. I imagined them gathered around a stove as the cold pressed in, sharing food, telling stories, perhaps tending to worries that were not so different from mine: the health of loved ones, the future of children, the struggle to endure. Their joys and anxieties seemed no less real for being tucked away in such remoteness.

What would silence sound like in the depth of night, broken only by the wind brushing at the canvas? To wake and hear nothing, no traffic, no hum of machines, not even the rustle of leaves. Just the stillness of creation itself. Perhaps it is in such silence that the soul becomes attuned to something greater, something that modern life has smothered.

And then, the sky. I envied them that. To look up from the dark of the Gobi and see the heavens in their fullness, a Milky Way unbroken, stars uncountable, so thick they must feel like a river flowing overhead. To live beneath such a sky each night is to live close to the infinite, to be reminded that we are small, passing, yet also deeply connected to the eternal and the creator.

As I sat in my seat high above, I found myself longing for that simplicity, that communion with earth and sky. For the desert dwellers, it is a given. For me, it was a glimpse, a yearning awakened by the view from thirty thousand feet. And whilst I envy them, they look up at me and wonder what cultures I have left and what cultures I belong to. One day, yes one day, we will hopefully meet in that grand time that Job, the Biblical character, called The Renewal.

“I wish you would hide me in the grave and forget me there until your anger has passed.

But mark your calendar to think of me again!"

Job 14:13 (TLB).

Scripture quotations taken from The Living Bible, copyright © 1971 by Tyndale House Foundation. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers, Carol Stream, Illinois 60188. All rights reserved.

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Is Humanity Being Observed?

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Is Humanity Being Observed?

Have you ever felt someone is staring at you from a distance. It could be intimidating or it could be a compassionate gaze, depending on your actions in life.  NASA among other nations  have poured billions into the search for life beyond our planet. But what are we truly looking for? Is it curiosity alone that drives us, or a deep, unspoken desire to be acknowledged by voices from other worlds? And if intelligent beings were out there, watching us, how would they judge the way we live on this fragile blue planet?

Think of it: Earth is overflowing with resources, enough to nourish every man, woman, and child. Yet images of starving children, hollow-eyed with hunger, still reach our screens. Diseases that could be cured with a few pills continue to take lives, while others spend fortunes on luxuries. In our cities, men and women sleep in doorways, while vast stretches of land lie unused. Drugs erode communities, and leaders—charged with steering nations—argue endlessly, unable to find unity even on the simplest matters. It is chaos dressed as progress, like trying to net fish in a storm.

And still, we imagine ourselves prepared to welcome strangers from the stars.

What would they see in us? They might acknowledge our ingenuity—rockets leaving Earth’s pull, symphonies that stir the heart, and sciences that peel back the fabric of reality. But would their hearts not ache at our inhumanity and contradictions? At our greed, our divisions, our blindness to injustice? Would they wonder why a species so richly blessed refuses to live by the principles that could heal its wounds?

And perhaps the greater question is not what they would make of us, but what we would make of them. Suppose these visitors did not arrive with weapons or dazzling technologies, but with a message—simple, ancient, and moral. Imagine them urging us to love our neighbour indeed, not just in speech. To be faithful in our commitments, to tell the truth, to show kindness to the vulnerable—the poor, the elderly, the orphan, the widow. To treat animals with dignity, to resist envy, greed, and gossip, to pay fair wages without exploitation. To live humbly, compassionately, humanly.

Would we welcome such wisdom, or scoff at it, as we so often dismiss the moral compass already laid before us and look where we are? 

It is sobering to realize that the virtues we might hope for from enlightened extra-terrestrials are the very values humanity has long been taught—but so often neglects. Could it be that the wisdom we seek in distant galaxies has already been given to us, whispered through centuries?

Perhaps they are already watching, not with curiosity but with judgment. Not descending in spaceships, but observing from afar, weighing how we care for the gifts entrusted to us. In this sense, they might resemble the God described in 2 Chronicles 16:9: “For the eyes of the LORD roam throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him.”

The apostle Paul spoke similarly to the Athenians: “That they should seek the Lord, if perhaps they might feel after him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us” (Acts 17:27). Could it be that in our restless search among the stars, we overlook the presence of the eternal that is already nearby?

Before we stretch our gaze outward, perhaps we must first look inward. For if we cannot learn to live in peace with each other on Earth, what chance do we have of understanding life beyond it? The real discovery may not be out there, among the constellations, but here—within our own humanity, waiting to be lived.

 

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The Silence of Europe

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Edited by Jim McCrory, Wednesday 17 September 2025 at 08:23

“Return to me, and I will return to you”

(Zechariah 1:3).

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The Silence of Europe

Europe once stood as a stronghold of Christianity. Cathedrals rose toward the sky, their bells marking the rhythm of village and city life. Faith shaped laws, customs, and imagination. Yet over time, the foundation shifted. The Enlightenment placed human reason at the centre. Science, a noble pursuit in itself, began to be treated as the only voice of truth. And today, much of Europe carries a quiet weariness; a sense of apathy toward questions of God and eternity.

Some ask: is this God’s punishment? Scripture shows that when people forget Him, they often reap the fruit of their choices. Ancient Israel’s history bears witness to this cycle: when they turned away, they lost their bearings. But Jesus Himself warned against seeing every tragedy or decline as a direct judgment. He pointed instead to repentance, to the need for hearts to return to God (Luke 13:1–5).

The Enlightenment was not without light. It opened doors to learning, discovery, and freedom of thought. But when reason was enthroned as the only authority, something essential was lost. The soul cannot live on knowledge alone. The result, across centuries, has been a kind of spiritual thinning, people no longer hostile to God, but indifferent. Churches stand empty not because people are asking too many questions, but because they have stopped seeking deeper answers.

Perhaps what we see is not punishment so much as consequence. A culture built on sand eventually feels the ground shift (Matthew 7:26–27). Without God, even the richest civilization grows weary. Europe’s struggles with loneliness, restlessness, and disillusionment may simply reflect that absence.

And yet, decline is not the end of the story. Throughout Scripture, God always preserves a remnant. Renewal often begins quietly, at the margins—in small communities, in the faith of the young, in the prayers of the unseen. Europe once sent missionaries to the world; today, missionaries from other continents return to her shores, reminding us that God’s Spirit is not bound by geography.

If Europe is weary, it may be because God is gently inviting her back. The stillness in her cathedrals might yet become the ground for a new song. For His promise endures: “Return to me, and I will return to you” (Zechariah 1:3).

The silence of Europe need not be her ending. It may be the pause before renewal.

 

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The Mystery of Music

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The Mystery of Music

Sometimes the most uneventful day can leave us with pleasent memories. Yesterday, I found myself in the Combined Assessment Unit of my local  hospital receiving treatment for an ongoing illness. Before the doctor released me, I observed what the power of music can do. As a woman rushed out of the hospital, she suddenly stopped, turned back, and entered the waiting room where we were all gathered. Kiri Te Kanawa was singing O mio babbino caro by Puccini. For a moment, everything froze. The patients, the staff, the sterile walls of the hospital—all paused as her voice filled the space. Yes, it was music to stop you in your tracks.

Today, on my morning walk, I listened to Gustavo Dudamel on the BBC’s Desert Island Discs. I was moved by his enthusiasm as he spoke of the mystery of music, how it moves us in ways we cannot fully explain. Personally, I see no mystery in its essence: it is a gift from the Creator. The mystery, for me, lies elsewhere—in how composers across any genre manage to produce works that endure, that live on far beyond them, carrying an emotional shelf life of centuries.

Dudamel also spoke about his home in Venezuela, where serenade performers still go from house to house, singing beneath windows. It carried me back to a childhood memory of music that was less polished, yet no less unforgettable.

1963: The Incongruity of Self-Awareness
I was seven years old. Every Sunday at 11 a.m., a man would appear round the back of our tenement building. He carried his own stage in the form of a soapbox, wore a bowtie with a donkey jacket, and looked like a music hall artist fallen on hard times. He would swig from a bottle of wine, then launch into Mario Lanza’s Be My Love. The sound rose through the grey closes, spilling into kitchens and living rooms. My mother would listen just long enough before opening her purse, tossing some coins out the window, and muttering, “Why doesn’t that b…. man sing something new?” as she wiped the tears from her eyes.

And yet, even now, I realise he too was part of the mystery. Whether sung in opera houses, broadcast on the radio, or crooned on a street corner by a man with a bottle and a soapbox, music finds a way to reach us, to demand our attention, to remind us we are human.

"You open Your hand

and satisfy the desire of every living thing."

Psalm 145:16 (BSB).

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Searching For Truth

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Edited by Jim McCrory, Monday 8 September 2025 at 11:57

“I am the way, the truth, and the life.
No one comes to the Father except through me.”

— John 14:6

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Searching For Truth

More and more people today are waking up to the realization that they are, in fact, part of a cult. One common question that surfaces is: “But what about all the good things my group does?” The truth is that people rarely join a cult because of its shadows; they are drawn in by the warmth it seems to radiate. Yet those who share that warmth often don’t see that they themselves are still in need of light.

This is what makes cults so deceptive: they often cloak themselves in good works and community spirit. From the outside, the word cult might bring to mind secretive rituals, wild beliefs, or extreme fanaticism. But in reality, most operate quietly, presenting themselves as legitimate movements that promise hope, belonging, or answers to life’s deepest questions.

If you’ve ever wondered whether you might be in a cult, it usually begins with a subtle unease—an inner sense that something isn’t quite right. The process of recognition starts when you allow yourself to ask tough questions about the group’s teachings, its leaders, and the degree of freedom you actually have. Beware, if a naked man offers you a shirt as the expression goes.

At the centre of almost every cult is absolute authority. Leaders claim to hold exclusive truths, beyond question or challenge. If raising doubts is met with fear, punishment, or rejection, that’s a sign of unhealthy control. In contrast, healthy communities encourage dialogue, accountability, and independent thought.

Another warning sign is isolation. Cults often create an “us versus them” mindset, where outsiders are portrayed as threats. Over time, members are urged to distance themselves from family and friends, until the group becomes the only source of emotional, social, and even financial support.

Then there are the demands. Many cults expect heavy sacrifices of time, money, and personal energy, always placing the group’s needs above your own. This may extend into the control of emotions, too. Fear, shame, and guilt are wielded to keep members in line. Leaving is often painted as betrayal—bringing divine punishment, public shaming, or the loss of your entire community.

Exclusivity of truth is another hallmark. Cults insist they alone possess the path to salvation, enlightenment, or fulfilment. All other viewpoints are dismissed as dangerous, and independent thinking is stifled.

At first, the control may be subtle. Many groups use love bombing—lavishing newcomers with attention, praise, and acceptance to draw them in. But as time passes, warmth can turn cold. Public humiliation, shunning, or harsh criticism are used to enforce compliance, and those who leave are often vilified.

Secrecy plays a role as well. Financial dealings, leadership decisions, or inner teachings are often hidden until a member is deeply entangled. But genuine, trustworthy organizations are marked by openness, not secrecy.

So how can you discern the difference? Ask yourself:

  • Do I feel free to walk away without fear or punishment?
  • Am I encouraged to think critically, ask questions, and disagree?
  • Do the leaders live by the same standards they demand of others?
  • Does my involvement leave me stronger, freer, and more hopeful—or diminished?

Recognizing these patterns is not easy, especially when you’ve invested so much of yourself. But pausing to evaluate with honesty is vital. Trusted friends, family outside the group, or professional counsellors can help you see clearly. 

Above all, remember truth, life, and freedom are not found in human authority or exclusive systems—but in Christ himself to the glory of the Father.

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Will There Be a Judgement Day?

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Will There Be a Judgement Day?

“What exists has already been, and what will be has already been,

for God will call to account what has passed.”

— Ecclesiastes 3:15

My wife and I read this last night and were perplexed by its meaning. A bit of research though, helped with the unpacking.

The writer of Ecclesiastes lifts our eyes from the immediacy of daily life to a larger horizon. His words are at once perplexing and comforting. They remind us that time is not linear as we perceive it, but cyclical, enfolded within God’s eternal gaze. To human reason, this is bewildering. We long for clarity, for neat beginnings and endings, but Scripture tells us that “what exists has already been” and “what will be has already been.” God dwells outside of time’s stream, seeing both ends at once.

This truth can unsettle us. If God’s purposes stretch across eternity, then much of life’s apparent disorder—the injustice, the sorrow, the vanity—seems beyond our comprehension. We search for meaning in what is fleeting and wonder why God allows certain things to pass. His workings, the Preacher insists, are not always open to human explanation. They are “perplexing” because His thoughts are higher than our thoughts, and His ways higher than our ways (Isaiah 55:9).

Yet Ecclesiastes does not leave us in bewilderment. The verse turns: “God will call to account what has passed.” Suddenly, the fog clears. If history is cyclical, if nothing is truly new under the sun, then God remains its fixed point. He is not absent from the pattern; He is the Judge who remembers.

Having watched a video on YouTube yesterday were young people asked who Hitler was? One said an actor, another said a guy with a moustache, another said someone who never existed. Hitler’s deeds have become forgotten by many. But with God, no deed is forgotten. The kindness done in secret, unnoticed by men, lives on before Him. Equally, the cruelty, the neglect, the betrayal of God and of our fellow man—these too are not buried with the passing of time. We may try to hide behind the rocks of distraction, of excuses, even of silence, but there is no rock thick enough to conceal us from His sight. The psalmist writes, “Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?” (Psalm 139:7). The answer is nowhere. No, we cannot hide under a rock.

For those who have lived unjustly, this realization is sobering. Earthly sojourns may appear to escape justice—crimes unpunished, lies unexposed, oppressors dying in peace—but before the gaze of the Eternal One, all accounts remain open until He closes them. For those who walk humbly, however, it is a source of strength. God does not forget. The love poured out, the burdens borne quietly, the prayers whispered in the night—all endure in His remembrance.

Thus, Ecclesiastes 3:15 leaves us in a place of reverence. God’s workings are perplexing, yes. But His justice is certain. Time bends and repeats, but it never erases. At the end, what matters is not whether we fully understood His purposes, but whether we lived in faithfulness, knowing that the Judge of all the earth will do right.

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Let’s Escape This Life for a Day

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Let’s Escape This Life for a Day

In 1999, I lived for a time in Stavanger, Norway. Most mornings, leaving Randaberg and heading into the city, I stopped at a filling station for a freshly made skolebolle—a school bun. I can still taste the custard, coconut, and sweetness. I miss them still.

Sometimes, in the private cinema of my imagination, I step into a time machine and escape this life for a single day. Don’t tell me you’ve never entertained the thought. One press of a button and I’m in a 17th-century Japanese village, mist curling like silk above the paddies, sandals shuffling across the earth. Another press and I’m wandering an Indian night market, the air alive with cumin and cardamom, the chatter of merchants and buyers weaving a living symphony. Or perhaps I’d go further still—away from humanity altogether—and find myself alone in the Rockies, a bag of skoleboller somehow beamed away while the coffee brewed. I’d pitch my tent beneath a midnight sky brimming with stars and listen to a silence so complete it feels as though the earth itself is holding its breath.

But then the dream fades. I blink, and here I am—back in Scotland on a Saturday evening. Nothing extraordinary. Just reality humming along.

And in those quiet returns, the questions arrive. What’s it all about? Why are we here at all? Are we only a passing arrangement of atoms—chance evolution—replicating ourselves until we vanish? Some are content with that explanation. I’m not. Because the world does not behave as though it’s meaningless.

Think about it. Flowers bloom in colours that surpass function. Birds sing songs more elaborate than survival requires. We, too, hunger for what is unnecessary. We write poetry. We compose music. We fall in love with paintings, with stories, with the way sunlight filters through a late-afternoon window. None of this is needed to stay alive. Yet without it, are we truly living? The unnecessary becomes essential.

And then there’s time. We grow older. Doors begin to close one by one. Torschlusspanik, the Germans call it—the panic of gates shutting as opportunities slip away. Suddenly, we cling to life with a desperation we never knew was in us. Few are ready to say, “Tomorrow is enough.” We bargain for more time, more seasons, more chances. Why? Because something deep within whispers that life ought not to end.

My sister once spoke with an old man who stood weeping at the sight of the countryside. When she asked if he was alright, he said, “I see all this beauty, and I don’t have much longer to live. But I want to stay.” His tears were the language of eternity. He wanted more not because he was greedy, but because he was human.

The writer of Ecclesiastes put it plainly: God has “set eternity in the human heart.” That single thought explains much of our restless longing. It explains why sunsets undo us, why we fear the final curtain, why we ask questions that biology cannot satisfy. It tells us that our hunger for permanence is not a flaw but a clue.

The Garden of Eden was a template for what the whole earth was meant to be. Our first parents were told to spread out and cultivate the land. Imagine it—the whole earth filled with Rockies, Japanese gardens, skoleboller, and the rich delights of every age and culture. And here is the point: with eternity in your lap, there is no need to beam about. There is no hurry. Build a boat, sail to the Orkneys, then to the Faroes, and on to Norway. Ride a horse to Stavanger. Kult! as the Norwegians say.

“Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.”
— Luke 23:43 (NIV)

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The Quiet Theft of the Busybody

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The Quiet Theft of the Busybody

I live in a neighbourhood where people show respect by giving one another space. No one pries into anyone else’s business, and I’m grateful for that. It’s a quiet recognition of dignity.

While reading my Bible this morning, I was struck again by how directly the Apostle Peter spoke about this. He warned that not all suffering is noble. Some of it, he said, comes from choices we bring on ourselves — murder, theft, wrongdoing. And then came the surprise: “or as a meddler” (1 Peter 4:15). The Greek word Peter uses is rare and vivid: it means “an overseer of another’s matters.” A meddler isn’t just a gossip or a curious neighbour; it is someone who assumes the right to probe into another person’s life.

This stirs something painful for me. I left my religion of thirty-three years because of the harm caused by meddlers and even after being away for 14 years, they still meddle.  Their interference was never kindness; it was controlling, humiliating, and cruel. The Apostle Paul’s advice feels like a breath of fresh air in comparison: “Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own affairs…” (1 Thessalonians 4:11). True godliness is shown in restraint, not interference.

Literature often paints the meddler in comic shades — Mrs. Bennet in Pride and Prejudice, forever intruding on her daughters’ futures, or the troublemakers of Shakespeare and Dickens whose interference turns lives upside down. On the page, they may be amusing. But in real life, meddling is far from harmless.

Today it often hides in plain sight. Social media thrives on it — strangers commenting with authority on lives they do not live, choices they do not face, burdens they do not carry. Families know it too. Then there is a neighbour who cloaks intrusion as “concern,” a manager who crushes initiative with constant interference, a friend that reveals confidences, a pastor or elder who probs under the guise of “shepherding.”  Such meddling doesn’t nurture; it stifles. It can leave deep scars of shame, resentment, or loss of confidence. Were possible, withdraw from such ones.

Perhaps that is why Peter placed meddling alongside murderers and thieves. It is, in its own way, a form of theft — stealing dignity, privacy, and the right to carry one’s own burdens. It murders trust by saying, “You cannot handle your own life; I must handle it for you.” Proverbs reminds us: “Whoever belittles his neighbour lacks sense, but a man of understanding remains silent” (Proverbs 11:12). Silence here is wisdom, knowing when to step back, rather than meddle.

Meddling may look small compared to theft or violence, but its effects are far-reaching. It diminishes the victim and distorts love into control. To resist it is to live with humility, to acknowledge that only Christ is the true shepherd of souls.

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I Confess, The Addiction is Called Tsunsho

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I Confess, The Addiction is Called Tsunsho

I was wandering through Waterstones on Argyle Street, Glasgow, when my eye was caught by a bookshelf I swear had never been there before. It was as though it had sprouted overnight like a mushroom after rain. And what a mushroom—an entire shelf dedicated to writers’ notebooks. Every possible shape, colour, and size. Some even masqueraded as Victorian novels, the sort you expect to smell faintly of dust and old libraries.

Naturally, I was helpless. I picked one up, then another, stroking the covers like some Victorian opium-eater handling forbidden goods. They all looked so dignified, so promising. I could almost hear them whispering: Buy me, and your great novel will practically write itself.

But here’s the rub: at home I already have a drawer full of these things. All pristine. All untouched. A silent mausoleum of ambition.

The Japanese, with their flair for naming life’s quirks, have a word for buying books and never reading them: tsundoku. It's about stacking them up so they radiate intelligence while the owner remain exactly the same.

But what of notebooks? Where’s the term for compulsively buying blank pages, as though the very act of possession might infuse you with genius? Tsundoku may be noble neglect, but my vice is more tragic. A notebook bought, and never written in, feels like adopting a pet and then refusing to feed it.

Tsunsho a neologism suggested by ChatGPT sounds as good a name for this addiction as any:

Tsunsho (積ん書) made up from 積ん (tsun) : “to pile up, accumulate” and (sho) : “writing, book, document”

 

 

 

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What's on the Dog's Mind; What's on Mine

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What's on the Dog's Mind; What's on Mine

 

I was on the train today when a dog, sleek and silver as quicksilver, perhaps a Weimaraner, began to tremble with anticipation. His paws pattered a restless rhythm on the floor, and his thin, spiralling whine rose like a kettle just before it sings.

I leaned toward the owner and asked, “What’s he so excited about?”
     “The beach,” she smiled. “He knows whenever we take the train, it means sand and sea.”

In that moment, I caught his joy as if it were contagious, and I thought of the Hebrew word Firgun—the unselfish delight in another’s happiness. It struck me that this word, usually reserved for human circles, surely stretches to include the animal kingdom.

Konrad Lorenz once observed that “there is no faith which has never yet been broken, except that of a truly faithful dog.” Here was that faith transfigured into pure anticipation: the animal’s body alive with memory and desire, the train itself no longer iron and motion but a herald of crashing waves and salt-soaked freedom.

I realised that perhaps our hearts, too, are wired like this: to leap at certain signs, to tremble when a promise is near fulfilment. And in sharing the dog’s ecstasy, I was reminded that joy is never diminished by being passed along—it multiplies.

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The Drug Dealer’s Nemesis

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The Drug Dealer’s Nemesis

 

“What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul?”
— Mark 8:36

We have heard the stories that circulate. Drug  dealers using child runners and giving them free drugs to to deliver them into addiction. 

When I walk through towns near me, like Glasgow, I see the painful legacy of drugs woven into the fabric of society. Addiction devastates lives, families, and communities. Yet in the world of drug dealing, the lines blur—because both the victim and the dealer are, in truth, victims.

Consider this thought experiment. A button sits before you. You have two choices: walk away and leave life unchanged or press it—and instantly receive untold riches. Houses, cars, holidays, bank accounts overflowing. Every comfort the world can offer.

But there is a cost. Somewhere, a stranger falls down dead. It could be a Bedouin shepherd, a Filipino rice farmer or a fisherman on the high seas.  You’ll never meet them, never know their name, never see their family’s grief. Their absence will ripple through the lives of others, but you will remain rich and  apparently untouched.

The brutal question is: would you press the button?

Drug dealers press it daily—not by machine, but by choice. They exchange the lives of others for wealth and status. Their fortunes are built on broken homes, ruined bodies, and prison cells. In their world, another’s destruction is merely the price of their gain. The button is already pressed, again and again.

Yet this experiment is not only about them, it also exposes us. If the offer were laid before us, anonymous and guaranteed, would we resist? It is easy to say, “I would never press it,” but temptation whispers more seductively than principle when the stakes are high.

Here lies the truth: the button is never anonymous. You are seen. You are known. The Creator weighs not only the deed but the intent. To press the button is not just to harm another, it is to wound yourself. For what is gained if you win the whole world but lose your soul?

We live in an age full of invisible buttons. Choices to exploit or to serve. To profit from others’ suffering or to show compassion. To look away in blindness, or to look with love. The riches such choices promise are an illusion, a gilded snare. But the judgment of the Creator is not.

To walk away—to let the button gather dust—is to choose life. Life not only for the unseen stranger, but for your own soul. Your eternal life. And go ponder, many addicts are finding God and Jesus and gaining the power of God's spirit to overcome this evil. 

If you know a drug dealer, show them this. They may need reminding that their greatest enemy is not the law, not rival gangs, not even the police. Their true nemesis is the button they press—and the soul they forfeit with each press.

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Between Worlds: Who Was this Swedish Author?

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Between Worlds: Who Was this Swedish Author

I’ve been reading Light the Dark: Writers on Creativity, Inspiration, and the Artistic Process, where writers such as Amy Tan, Junot Díaz, Khaled Hosseini, and Karl Ove Knausgaard reflect on the sparks that set their imaginations alight. Their stories prompted me to ask myself the same question: what inspired me to write?

I could point to the books that shaped me from childhood, the late-night conversations with literature students I worked alongside during night shifts in Safeway, Paisley Road West in Glasgow when I was a boy, or even my years of public speaking, which share something of the rhythm and structure of writing. Yet one moment stands out more than all of these.

In the 1990s, while teaching myself Swedish—using either Rosetta Stone or perhaps a “Teach Yourself” course—I came across a short story tucked away at the back of the material. It told of a Swedish schoolteacher sitting in his classroom, imagining what his pupils might be thinking as they bent over their work. It was a simple premise, yet utterly gripping.

That story lodged in my memory and, in many ways, shaped my view of writing itself: the attempt to enter another’s thoughts, to listen across the silence. For some reason, it carried the same resonance for me as Dylan Thomas’s Under Milk Wood; a chorus of inner voices, ordinary yet profound.

The problem is, I no longer remember either the author or the title. I have written to several Swedish literary institutions, but so far without success. ChatGPT has suggested it may have been written  by Hjalmar Söderberg, but I’ve found nothing to confirm this. What I do know is that, of all the stories I’ve read in my life, this one has never left me. It remains a quiet spark behind why I write today.

And so I make this appeal: if there are any Swedish literature students, professors, or writers who recognize the story I’ve described— a schoolteacher imagining his pupils’ inner lives—I would be deeply grateful to hear from you. To identify this author would be to reconnect with the very moment that first awakened me to the possibilities of writing.

Mellan världar: Vem var denna svenska författare

Jag har läst Light the Dark: Writers on Creativity, Inspiration, and the Artistic Process, där författare som Amy Tan, Junot Díaz, Khaled Hosseini och Karl Ove Knausgård reflekterar över gnistorna som tänder deras fantasi. Deras berättelser fick mig att ställa mig själv samma fråga: vad inspirerade mig att skriva?

Jag skulle kunna peka på böckerna som formade mig från barndomen, på de sena nattliga samtalen med litteraturstudenter som jag arbetade tillsammans med under nattskift på Safeway, eller till och med på mina år av offentligt talande, som delar något av skrivandets rytm och struktur. Ändå finns det ett ögonblick som står ut mer än alla dessa.

På 1990-talet, när jag lärde mig svenska på egen hand—antingen med Rosetta Stone eller kanske en kurs i serien Teach Yourself—stötte jag på en novell som låg gömd längst bak i materialet. Den berättade om en svensk lärare som satt i sitt klassrum och föreställde sig vad hans elever kunde tänka på när de böjde sig över sina uppgifter. Det var en enkel premiss, men fullständigt fängslande.

Den berättelsen fastnade i mitt minne och formade på många sätt min syn på själva skrivandet: försöket att tränga in i en annans tankar, att lyssna genom tystnaden. Av någon anledning hade den samma resonans för mig som Dylan Thomas Under Milk Wood; en kör av inre röster, vardagliga men ändå djupgående.

Problemet är att jag inte längre minns vare sig författaren eller titeln. Jag har skrivit till flera svenska litterära institutioner, men hittills utan framgång. ChatGPT har föreslagit att det kan ha varit Hjalmar Söderberg, men jag har inte funnit något som bekräftar det. Vad jag däremot vet är att av alla berättelser jag läst i mitt liv, så är det denna som aldrig lämnat mig. Den förblir en stilla gnista bakom varför jag skriver idag.

Därför vill jag vädja: om det finns några svenska litteraturstudenter, professorer eller författare som känner igen berättelsen jag beskrivit—en lärare som föreställer sig sina elevers inre liv—skulle jag vara djupt tacksam för att höra från er. Att identifiera denna författare vore att återknyta till det ögonblick som först väckte mig för skrivandets möjligheter. 

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My Body is a Wave. My Soul is the Sea.

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My Body is a Wave. My Soul is the Sea.

In a metaphorical sense, we are like the ancient paradox of the ship of Theseus. We are being renewed plank by plank, which raises the mystery: Am I still me? Are you still you?

Every seven to ten years, I am a different man. My blood is not the same blood. My skin is not the same skin. Even the heart that beats within me, though it has worked faithfully since my first breath, has shed much of its substance, cell by cell. I am remade in silence, without asking for it, without noticing. Pierre Teilhard de Chardin once wrote, We are not human beings having a spiritual experience; we are spiritual beings having a human experience.

And yet, I remain myself.

This continuity astonishes me. If I am no longer the sum of the parts I once was, then what exactly endures? When I look in the mirror, I see a face etched by time and illness. The man staring back is not the boy who once gazed at the stars in wonder, nor the young husband with laughter at the corners of his mouth. Yet he is not a stranger. Something binds all these selves into one story: mine.

Perhaps we are not things but patterns, woven again into new material. Like a melody carried across shifting instruments, the notes remain though the sound changes. Our bodies are the violins, the cellos, the flutes. But the tune persists.

Science tells me my atoms will one day return to the soil, the sea, and the stars. Faith tells me that I, the I that cannot be weighed or measured, will not vanish with them. The continuity of my body is fragile, fleeting. The continuity of my soul is another matter. When Stephen, the first Christian martyr, was stoned to death, he cried out, “Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.” Something continued to exist beyond his broken body.

And here lies the surprising comfort. If I am more than flesh and memory, then life is not a desperate clinging to what slips away but an anticipation of what endures. The pattern is not yet finished.

When I walk the shoreline in the morning, I sometimes think of the waves. Each one breaks and dissolves, yet the sea remains. My body is a wave. My soul is the sea.

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So You Think You’re a Gangster?

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"So You Think You’re a Gangster?"

In my mid to late teens, I lived in Pollok. I called it the Barracuda Triangle due to its dangers. Three gangs marked the corners, The Paka, the Crew, and the Bundy. One afternoon, as I was walking home, a boy a year or so older came up to me and said, “So you think you’re a gangster?” Then, without warning, he head-butted me.

An old woman passing by muttered in a mocking tone, “Did you see stars, son?”

That was the climate of the 1970s in Glasgow: senseless violence, carried along by the stories and books that seemed to glorify toughness and brutality.

I was doubly an outsider. Having moved there from Govan, I found myself no longer accepted by the very boys I had grown up with. To them, I had crossed a line; I was suddenly the enemy. Between a rock and a hard place, I kept my head down as best I could.

I’ve been thinking about those days recently. One morning a few months after I was attacked, I was on the bus to school, someone slid into the seat beside me. It was the same boy who had head-butted me, but he didn’t recognize me. He told me he was heading to the Govan Juvenile Court to face a charges for some missdemeanor. He was alone. No parent, no friend, just a youth carrying the weight of what he had done alone to the court for sentencing. 

Strangely, I felt no hatred toward him. What I felt instead was sorrow. Perhaps he had been more victim than villain—neglected at home, unloved, and so forced to wear the mask of hardness. Maybe the swagger of a “hard man” was the only way he knew to be seen, to be acknowledged. I will never know the truth of his story.

What I do know is that he was sentenced into a young offender’s institution. His life branched off in a direction I never followed. I don’t know where he ended up, or whether he found peace, but I think of him still—not with resentment, but with compassion.

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." — attributed to Plato

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On the Loss of Parents

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Under My Northern Sky

I was talking recently with a man who came to do some work in my house. Our conversations were brief, but in them we found much in common. Both of us had lost our parents as teenagers. That fact alone bound us in silent understanding. Grief is never tidy; it shifts and grows with us, like a shadow. We agreed on one truth: the loss strikes deeper as the years pass. The older we become, the more acutely we feel the gap where a parent should be. And in both our cases, it was death, not estrangement, that caused the absence.

That conversation carried me back to the mid-1990s, when I was crossing from Newcastle to Gothenburg on the Princess of Scandinavia. Late at night, I left the bar after a vodka and made my way up to the top deck to steady myself in the cold air. Above me stretched the Northern sky, clear, sharp, endless. Every star shone in a silence so complete it was almost deafening. Alone, I felt they belonged to me, arranged in a constellation no one else would ever see in quite the same way.

Under that infinite canopy, the helplessness of loss rose within me. Like Ingmar Bergman in The Magic Lantern, haunted by his demons, I muffled my cry in silence. I was thinking of my adopted father, gone since I was twelve. That wound, though decades old, still throbbed as though fresh. Out of that lonely communion with the heavens came a fragment of verse, whispered to myself:

Meet me amidst the ocean
Under my Northern sky
To the light of constellations
As our restless stars pass by.

It is moments like this that make me value the Swedish word sambovict. To me it speaks of resilience, of standing upright. It captures something essential about what it means to be human: to carry grief, and yet to endure.

Too many children today grow up without one of their parents, often the father. I pray for them. They may not yet feel the full weight of that absence, but in time they will. Happiness, in the truest sense, begins with stability. Children flourish in the soil of secure, long-term, trusting relationships—not only for the sake of the parents, but for the children born of that union.

When my father closed his eyes for the last time, I was twelve. I learned too soon the pain of absence. He wasn’t perfect, but he demonstrated his love in many ways. I longed for his voice, his daily guidance, his bedtime stories that stretched imagination into wonder. Those stories shape us. They are what make us human. I can still see him, book in hand, reading aloud David Copperfield, Oliver Twist, Pinocchio. His voice carried those worlds into mine, binding us together in ways I didn’t yet understand.

Many single mothers and fathers rise to the challenge, doing their utmost. But the pressures are heavy—keeping a household together, paying bills, sustaining hope, while bearing the emotional aftershocks of divorce or bereavement. No one carries that load without cost.

Children need both parents, not only to say, Well done, but also to speak the truth in love when change is needed. They need a mother’s embrace and a father’s hand on the shoulder. When one voice falls silent, a child grows up with a quiet ache, a loneliness that lingers, a sense that something vital is missing.

I have carried that emptiness through my life. It surfaces in unexpected moments: a conversation with a tradesman in my living room, a solitary night on the deck of a ferry bound for Gothenburg. Yet even in that emptiness, I see something of our humanity. To love, to lose, to long, and to hope again—that is what it means to live under our Northern sky.

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Something I am Grateful For

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When I was a boy, I once stood before an eagle in the zoo. Its piercing eyes fixed on me, and for a moment, I felt as though it could see straight into my soul, exposing my thoughts and past life. The intensity unsettled me.

Years later, with age and reflection, I realised it was simply a bird, a magnificent creature, yes, but limited in its abilities, despite its keen eyesight.

Not long after, I came across these words from Jeremiah, which stirred deep thought within me:

“I, the LORD, probe into people's minds. I examine people's hearts. I deal with each person according to how he has behaved. I give them what they deserve based on what they have done.”
—Jeremiah 17:10 (NET)

In earlier years, such a verse would have filled me with unease. The idea of God knowing every hidden corner of my heart was daunting. But now, I take comfort in it. God knows me fully: a sinner, yes, but one trying his best.

When Jesus walked the earth, He made clear what His standard of judgment would be:

“Then the King will say to those on His right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave Me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave Me something to drink, I was a stranger and you took Me in, I was naked and you clothed Me, I was sick and you looked after Me, I was in prison and you visited Me.’ … ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of Mine, you did for Me.’”
—Matthew 25:34–40 (BSB)

This teaching is echoed in a remarkable story from Capernaum. A Roman centurion, moved by love for his servant, sent Jewish elders to ask Jesus for help. Their plea was based not on rank or wealth, but on kindness:

“He is worthy for you to do this for him, because he loves our nation and even built our synagogue.”

Yet the centurion himself, sensing his own unworthiness, sent word to Jesus:

“Lord, don’t trouble yourself, for I am not worthy to have You come under my roof … but say the word, and my servant will be healed.”
—Luke 7:6–7 (BSB)

Here was a man of the occupying army; an unlikely candidate for mercy. And yet, Jesus marvelled at his faith and granted his request.

It leaves us with much to ponder. Judgment, mercy, faith, love—how different they are from the layers of rules and programs that religious systems often burden us with. Jesus’ words ring clear across time:

“I desire mercy, not sacrifice.”
—Matthew 9:1

In retrospect, I am grateful for the fact that God has left the judging to Jesus. If it was left to humans...well...

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A Compass Beyond Ourselves

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A Compass Beyond Ourselves

People have long argued about where morality comes from. Is it something societies invent to keep order, or is it written into life itself by a higher power? While philosophers debate, the answer often shows itself in the ordinary moments of our lives.

Think of how deeply we care about fairness. It runs through most stories. In David Copperfield, Dickens closes with love, justice, and redemption: David marries Agnes, who embodies quiet devotion; Uriah Heep is exposed; Steerforth perishes at sea; and others find new beginnings. Such endings echo our instinct that wrongs must be set right.

In To Kill a Mockingbird, the resolution comes after Bob Ewell attacks Scout and Jem, and Boo Radley saves them by killing Ewell. The conflict between good and evil in Maycomb ends with Boo stepping out of the shadows, proving himself to be the protector the children once feared. Scout finally meets him and walks him home, standing on his porch and seeing the world from his perspective, fulfilling Atticus’s lesson that true understanding comes from “climbing into another person’s skin and walking around in it.” Justice arrives in an unexpected form; Scout gains maturity and empathy; and Boo Radley’s humanity is quietly honoured.

This same instinct for fairness surfaces in everyday life. When someone cuts in line, we bristle with frustration. Why? Because deep down we believe there is a right order to things. That sense of justice crosses cultures and generations. On a larger scale, it drives people across the world to rise against corruption, violence, and discrimination. No single nation or culture owns this cry for justice—it runs through all of humanity.

For those who believe in God, this shared moral conscience points to more than human opinion. It suggests a moral lawgiver, a divine source who has written into our hearts not only the ability to recognize injustice but also the desire to resist it. William Wilberforce wrote, "You may choose to look the other way but you can never say again that you did not know." Alexander Solzhenitsyn wrote, "The line dividing good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being. And who is willing to destroy a piece of his own heart?"

If morality were merely a matter of taste or custom, there would be little agreement. Yet across time and place, people continue to wrestle with the same questions of right and wrong, good and evil. The core remains steady, even when traditions shift.

This tells us morality is not an invention, but a truth built into our being. It is both universal and eternal. Whether in the irritation of a queue-jumper or in the global demand for justice, the same message comes through: we are made for fairness. And in that longing, we glimpse something beyond ourselves; a compass pointing us toward the eternal.

“They show that the requirements of the law are written on their hearts,

their consciences also bearing witness.”

Romans 2:15

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A Letter To… The Voice on My Train

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Edited by Jim McCrory, Sunday 7 September 2025 at 08:04

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A Letter To… The Voice on My Train

 

You were on my train.

Even before the wheels turned, you arrived, not in person, but in sound. Ten minutes before departure, your voice claimed the carriage, loud and relentless, spilling into every corner like Watt’s steam engine. You were on the phone, words tumbling out in long, circling strands that never seemed to settle. I wondered if there was someone at the other end of your call or perhaps it was all dramaturgical in the Erwin Goffman sense. The cadence of your accent struck the air with a bluntness such as that of  a Jeepney barker.

As the train carried us forward, you carried on. Fifteen minutes in, you were still there, not just in your seat, but in the atmosphere itself. Ironically, I tried to read My Life as a Dog by Reidar Jonsson; a story about a Swedish boy who was an empath. But the letters swam and blurred, eclipsed by the current of your speech. Around you, people shifted, sighed, and stole glances. You noticed, but it seemed you deliberately avoided eye contact as all eyes were on you. You remained unyielding, as though declaring that your voice had the right to dominate the air we shared.

And yet—I wonder.

Beneath the defiance, was there something else? A loneliness, maybe. A hunger to be heard. You reminded me of a child who learns to provoke, not out of mischief but out of need: notice me, see me, don’t let me vanish into the quiet.

Talking loudly in public can be a kind of declaration: I exist. It isn’t always arrogance, it can just as easily be longing in disguise. When silence feels like abandonment, some people learn to defend themselves with noise. In the small world of a train carriage, that insistence becomes a kind of power: my voice will set the tone here. Perhaps it is armour. Perhaps it is a way to keep the deeper silences at bay; he silences that ask questions, the silences that remind us of what hurts.

I don’t know your story. I only know your voice. But I hope, wherever your journey has taken you since, you have found a quieter space, one where someone listens, really listens, without you needing to raise your volume.

And I hope, should we ever share a carriage again, you will leave us a little of that quiet too.

—A fellow passenger

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The Eternal Whisper That All is Well

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The Eternal Whisper That All is Well

The consultant stared at me across the desk and asked, almost hesitantly, “Are you getting this?” He had just told me that cancer had taken root in three of my organs. Perhaps he expected me to collapse under the weight of the words. But I did not.

I answered him with something that seemed to rise from a place deeper than myself: “There’s a young man inside me. My body is old and decaying, yes—but the young man is alive and full of life.”

Call him the soul, the psyche, or whatever name feels fitting. To me he is the undeniable core of who I am, and he convinces me, even in this hour, that there is eternal life for those deemed worthy. The young man inside me leans on that promise. He whispers that decay is only skin-deep, only temporary. He reminds me that the soul does not crumble with the body.

And yet, with this promise comes another reality, one expressed in a word borrowed from another tongue. The Portuguese speak of saudade, a deep longing for something absent. But they also have a quieter cousin of the word—saudoso—less spoken of, more haunting. It carries the awareness that what we long for may never return. An ache built into the very sound of the word.

I feel both. I live with saudade for the strength and vigour of my younger years, for the smooth-running body that once carried me easily across mountains and seas. But I also live with saudoso—the haunting knowledge that these things may not return in this life. It is an existential ache; the human condition distilled in language.

And yet, the young man inside me insists there is more. That one day the ache will be stilled. That life, eternal and unspoiled, will rise where now only frailty remains.

Christ’s words echo in me: “Do not be amazed at this, for a time is coming when all who are in their graves will hear his voice and come out” (John 5:28–29).

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Sweden to Govan: The Circus That Found Us

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Sweden to Govan: The Circus That Found Us

In his book Quicksand: What It Means To Be A Human Being, Henning Mankell wrote of a childhood moment in Sveg, Härjedalen, when the circus arrived. It did not arrive grandly, not in a blaze of light and splendour, but in a battered, rickety truck that looked as if it might give up before it reached the town square. Its timbers groaned, its tarpaulins flapped, its wheels wobbled under impossible weight. And yet to the children who lined the roadside, wide-eyed in the chill northern air, it was nothing short of miraculous.

That weary truck carried with it a promise. A secret world was rattling into town—clowns daubing their faces, jugglers testing their balance as the vehicle lurched forward, the smell of greasepaint and sawdust waiting to spill out. Mankell confessed that often the anticipation was greater than the performance itself. What mattered was not the ring, nor the tricks, but the mystery of what lay hidden behind the planks, that portal into a world where the everyday was briefly suspended.

I knew that same hunger in Govan.

Our backdrop was different; an industrial heartland where ungroomed dogs prowled the closes, where tenement walls hemmed in the sky, and where winter pressed down like a heavy hand, making the mornings as dim as the evenings. But just as in Mankell’s Sweden, the promise would arrive. Not on a truck, but on the walls. Posters appeared overnight, splashes of colour against the soot-stained stone. Painted clowns with impossible grins, lion tamers frozen in their daring, trapeze artists suspended mid-flight. To a boy in Glasgow, those images were more than ink and glue. They were invitations.

And then came the Kelvin Hall.

To step through its doors was to cross a threshold. Even before I entered, I could smell the sawdust, hear the brass warming up, feel the charge of something other breaking into the ordinary. The lights, the animals, the spectacle—yes, they dazzled. But like Mankell, I discovered the real enchantment lay in the longing that preceded it. The ache of expectation, the way imagination filled in the gaps before the first drum roll struck.

For a few hours, life lifted above its greyness. We were transported, lifted beyond tenement smoke and shipyard clang to a place where marvels reigned. But the marvels never lasted. When the show was over, when the crowd spilled out into the cold night air, a sadness fell, the kind of hush that follows laughter too soon ended. The posters would curl in the rain, the animals would be packed away, the truck would head down another road. And the streets of Govan, like the streets of Sveg, would return to themselves.

Yet the echo remained.

It was not the circus itself that endured, but what it awakened; a reminder of how deeply children hunger for something extraordinary to pierce their days. Mankell and I, strangers in different lands, carried the same memory: that the circus was not a show, but a promise. A fleeting glimpse that life could, for a moment, lift its veil of greyness and dazzle us with wonder.

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