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Ooops! I've been so absorbed in DB123 that I've forgotten to update this!

This course is going really well - done 2 of the 3 TMAs and got good marks on them both

In the time that's passed since my last post a lot has changed/happened. I PASSED B120!! Which meant I couldn't keep the grin off my face for about a week! In other news I've registered for my next course - just waiting for the financial support to be sorted, - it's T215 Communication and Information Technologies!

I've also applied for Disabled Students Allowance which I keep being sent forms for because I might be eligible but up until now haven't thought I needed it! Unfortunately I'm going through a dip in my health so I'm sturggling to concentrate for long periods and holding a pen, using a knife and fork, making hot drinks as well as typing and much more is a real struggle at the moment! Because of this dip in my health I've also had to ask my parents to look into getting a shower stool or put grab rails in as I'm getting dizzy and unsteady on my feet quite frquently!

I think that's you up to date with the goings on over the past few months! I must try and remember to post on here more regularly but what with typing being difficult at times and my memory being really quite like a sieve it doesn't exactly go to plan!

Hmmm... So with spare time on my hands between courses, all I seem to be doing is knitting and watching tv! Had so many things I planned to do in the garden but it keeps bucketing it down with rain!!

Part of me says perhaps resting is a good thing, I'll have more energy for my next course... But then again I won't have any energy for doing much else!!

The virus I thought I'd got rid of has come back with a vengence and I still need to check through my EMA! I'm feeling really quite rough today - head, neck and ear ache and I'm feeling sooo tired (more than the usual tiredness I get with my illness) Could possibly sleep for most of today! Which I might yet do!

Struggling to get on with anything - i did tidy my room yesterday which knackered me which it doesn't normally do! So either this is either that virus come back with a vengence or (lets hope it isn't) a relapse of the M.E.

Today has been fantastic, not just the weather!

I spent most of yesterday and today working on my EMA and have now finished it! I just need to type it up, read it through and submit it! But everything is written!!

I've sat out in the wonderful sunshine writing it all out! I just hope when I type it up the word processor counts the words as I have because I'm right on the 2500 word limit!

Oh well, I currently feel ON TOP OF THE WORLD! because most of the hard work is finished!

Hope everyone else is enjoying the weather!

Well that lost hour of sleep has really left its mark - I feel like I could sleep most of the day if my Dad wasn't doing DIY in the house!

However insulating the rooms is important so I suppose I'll let him off all the drilling and banging which is going on!

It's a shame its been so cold here in Chelmsford this morning but things are brightening up after the fog and the temperature's rising, so perhaps an escape into the garden is possible. Lets just hope I don't fall asleep in the sun and become a red lobster!

Mini rant /feeling sorry for myself and need to let it out somehow. Apologies in advance for a rather long monologue.

I'm feeling very down again today, for some reason my focus seems to be on what could have been - I see what my friends are doing, going to uni, out clubbing, getting boyfriends/ engaged etc. and it just seems to be reinforcing all the things I haven't done/ am unable to do thanks to this blasted illness! I'm not normally so negative but I don't know maybe it's just this winter of viruses getting to me. This is the first OU course I've done where I've been unable to attend any of the tutorials!

I just don't seem to be able to get past what I was able to do 6 months ago which I'm unable to now and focus on what I can do. I'm wondering how I'm ever going to 'meet a guy' as I hardly ever get out and when I do it's usually with my parents either in the car (as I can't drive yet, it's in my plan of future things to do) or with one of them pushing a wheelchair / encouraging me to keep walking when we go for short walks out.

Everything just seems to be getting me down, I'm fed up that I can't rest or sleep when I want/need to because our neighbours are noisy. I seem to be studying even when I'm not feeling great just because I don't know if I'll be able to sleep that night or study the next day because the neighbours may be banging/ arguing/ stinking the place out with garlic like smells. (that last one may sound petty but at the moment such strong smells make me feel nauseous so I don't feel able to study).

Life just seems so hard at the moment, but there's alot of determination in me yet this M.E. is NOT going to BEAT me. I'm just not sure how I'm going to beat it...but I'm determined I will!

Hi Everyone,

I've been feeling very down recently, thanks to a bad winter where I've had virus after virus on top of my existing illness (M.E.)

So I've decided to cheer myself up I would start a blog, in the hope that it's a place where I can vent my frustrations, share my achievements and generally talk to everyone without using as much energy!

I seem to have very little energy to go around at the moment!

I'm currently studying B120 An Introduction To Business Studies (Nov 2011) and had intended to attend all 3 dayschools but so far have failed to attend any! There's one tomorrow which I really hope I will manage to attend, but my M.E. has got worse this winter, so I'm now struggling to hold pens, keep books open etc.

I've yet to apply for DSA as when I started studying it didn't seem necessary, however I'm now looking into applying for it as I keep being sent the forms by OU.

I've now got my course materials in comb bound format and I'm looking at getting pen grips.