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Missing shoes

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Thursday, 30 Sep 2021, 22:44

Had a weird dream that all the family went to visit Nan, and when it was time to go home I couldn't find my shoes, looked everywhere. In the end I had to give up looking for them because it was taking too long. I got in the car, and the car didn't have a floor, when it drove you had to be careful not to accidently put your foot on the speeding road beneath, which wasn't easy.

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Future tree houses

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Thursday, 30 Sep 2021, 21:10

Strange day today, woke up with a different head on than normal, lost my other one in a wierd world where urban streets and pavements, roads, fences and houses had become organic beings that had been genetically modified into different shapes, they were the living structures of our civilisation and helped keep the air clean. Life thrived around them, insects, birds, mammals, all kinds of different species happily co-existing in this alien Earth world, It was very beautiful and peaceful. I remembered in the dream that I had to go to one of Saturn's moons on a mining expedition and I didn't want to go.
   It was a long journey to a human colony built inside a moon, a strange beehive of subway layers, each with shops and underground train stations. Everyone there was different than on Earth, they weren't so friendly, they were well grumpy and cold and hard like the subways they lived in.

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Anxiety ridden man's worst fears confirmed

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Friday, 21 Jan 2022, 21:39

All his friends and acquaintances constantly thought about his socially awkward moments:

https://www.theonion.com/anxiety-ridden-man-rightly-ashamed-of-every-single-thin-1819573445

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An experiment

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Thursday, 30 Sep 2021, 21:41

I was thinking about stuff I have written in the past about my sadness for the plight of the natural world. Today I became so frustrated by these thoughts I concluded it was an impossible thing to fix. This then seemed to cause the gears of my mind to slow and grind to a halt and I lost motivation for anything.

Then I remembered about the strange phenomena of faith. A writer, unfortunately I cannot remember his name, said he acted as if there was a muse even though in his mind he thought such things were nonsense; and so he turned up to write at his desk every day having faith the muse would be there, and strangely his reality became as if the muse was really there.

Even though I do not believe in God, perhaps if like the writer with the muse, I turn up each day and pray for the change I want to see in the world and have faith it will happen maybe this will be like a butterfly wing that starts a wind to turn this extinction event around. In the Jesus myth we are told if you have faith you can move mountains. Even though this is a mythological story, that idea must have come from somewhere. 

I will give faith a go anyway, see if it really can move mountains. It is irrational, possibly delusional; but in all honesty I do not  know what else to do really. The only other option is to give up and descend into apathy and deep sadness.

I have to try. I do not want to see the world end on my watch. 



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Musical goosebumps

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Friday, 24 Dec 2021, 22:17

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UevWXcSkiNg&t=100s

Be: Into

This tune makes me feel happy and sad at the same time.
Bringing to surface the joy and plight of the natural world.
A hope that life will survive, and thrive here once again.
May the curse of greed hatred delusion be no more.
May humans build a better civilisation
Heal the oil stricken damage of
the industrial revolution
evolve into altruism.
All life is equal
our kin.



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Monday morning

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Thursday, 30 Sep 2021, 21:40

Got my window open, strong winds from earlier have died down now to a gentle breeze. In sky, seagulls glide by sailiing the air currents. A jackdaw I call 'Blue', because he has a blue sheen to his feathers, comes into my room and helps himself to some food I left out for him. It is cool, I don't mind, I've known him for years. It is like the garden is extended to my room (when the window is open). Helps my mind feel at ease, peaceful inside. Although it gets bloody cold sometimes, think I will go make a coffee to warm up my hands and then get back to the studying and thinking.

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Chilling with robotics

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Thursday, 30 Sep 2021, 21:47

Definitely getting chillier here, when I went to rub my eyes just now, was like two icy crinkle fingers.
  I had fun on the module today trying to program a two-wheeled robot simulation to draw five interlocking squares. Much harder than it sounds, and Simon the robot is a bit trickier to move than the python turtle in TM112 was. It was difficult to get the robot to keep drawing in a straight line. To work out angles of direction I ended up mapping degrees to 100ths of a second of time spent turning. It was very hard to get things exactly how I wanted them though because the robot can only understand whole discrete values. In the end I came up with roughly 4.1 secs of turning time was required to complete a 360 degree turn, it was a very crude way of measuring, but kind of worked... 
a screenshot of a simulated robot that has drawn five squares, one in the middle the others connected to each of its corners, a bit like a connected five side on a dice



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What would happen if everyone believed all is one?

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Friday, 24 Dec 2021, 22:20

Interesting article:

https://blogs.scientificamerican.com/beautiful-minds/what-would-happen-if-everyone-truly-believed-everything-is-one/

Research seems to support the idea that believing everything is one and connected changes people's psychology to make them more inclusive of others, including different species of animal. The article seems to suggest this belief could be beneficial for human society. (*N.b. no belief in God required)




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Or a crow (;

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Thursday, 30 Sep 2021, 21:18

Picture of a dog at a computer, he turns to the dog next to him and says: 'One the internet, noone knows you're a dog.'


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Outliers

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Thursday, 30 Sep 2021, 21:39

Back to the study, feel like I've been hit by a train in my sleep. Moving about is difficult and tiredness in ma bones. Trying to maintain a positive vibe in my brain. Put on some tunes to encourage these hands of mine to move and get into the rythm of study. Head feels foggy and thoughts don't come easy. Still in my pyjamas, feel a little on the rough side, nothing feels smooth and lush internally like I wish it would. Sitting in front of my computer, eyes stinging, body aching, grumbling at movement, (going to need a painkiller I think,) like a hungry wraith trying to grab hold of some ethereal motivation to bring this mind back to life. I had an intense dream, but no idea what it was about now, the memory of it has gone back into the depths of my unconscious neural ocean. But the feeling it has left behind still seems to linger a little in my psyche, like ripples on the surface of a pond.
   Watched a TED talk on motivation, about positive thinking, but none of what was suggested seemed to resonate with me, I don't find training my inner neural network is as simple as this suited smiling fella seemed to suggest. I guess I must be an outlier, one of those folks that statisticians rub out to make their data fit whatever model/theory they are trying to sell as the next great insight into human psychology. The brain consists of something like 10 - 100 billion neurons on average with each one of those neurons having 1000 - 10 000 connections. The mind is an incredibly complex thing. There will always be outliers. Everyone is different, nobody on earth has lived the exact same life. Each one of us is truly unique, our DNA a unique combination of switched on phenotypes, and our brains are not exactly the same, no two people on earth have had the exact same experiences in life that shape those connections and neural networks in our minds. In a sense every person really is an island, we've all experienced this world in our own unique way. And we can only percieve the world based on our own experience of it. Nobody can fully understand what it is like to be someone else, we can only imagine what it is like to be another and theorise, but never truly know. There never will be one size fits all. 

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Exit

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Friday, 24 Dec 2021, 21:52
I don't care for your politica speak
people are dying

I don't care for your selfish corporate greed
animals are going extinct

seven times three
this is the 21st century

lose your last century crap
and self-centred ideology

World can't take no more fossil fuel

concrete jungle invasion 
grey bleak city cruel

no more poison
sprayed across the land
killing birds and insects
to satisfy supermarket demand

disinvent the trawler
sink them to the depths of the sea
scooping up all the fish
while sea-life goes hungry

and orcas go sterile from pvc

stop cutting down trees
leave the forest alone

open your hearts to one love
Altruism is better
for our survival

All life is interdependent

we are one

Aye-man 

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The silence

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Thursday, 30 Sep 2021, 21:28

I feel it under my skin

sleeping warrior

scattered pictures of life data

network of mind space

a connected neuron weave 

tapestry of night

invisible vacuum threads

what universe? Sing

humming its drone

I see its patterns in my sleep
where my other self

lives in dreams

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A great tit in my window

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Saturday, 25 Dec 2021, 14:42

Was just having a wee break from studying and looked out the open window and a great tit came and perched on it and I got the impression it was trying to tell me something. I immediately thought maybe the bird feeders are empty and went outside and they were all empty. So I filled them up and there was the great tit again along with many other hungry small birds. 

I must have forgotten to put anything out for them this morning. Shows the intelligence of birds though. That great tit knew I would be in my room studying and it came to my window just as I was looking out of it and somehow it made me think of checking the bird feeders, which I did and there it was again waiting for me by the feeder, somehow knowing I would do this. Clever bird.

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Life is kin

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Friday, 24 Dec 2021, 21:57

Got my headphones on just listening to some sweet tunes. A bit of insomnia but I don't mind. Music is an amazing thing. Sometimes I like writing to the beats, feeling the rhythm and unlocking some hidden or normally inhibited part of my soul through the combination of words and sound. Stories are weaved in the dead of night, some forgotten past where everyone feels at home. The night surrounds the glare of my dimmed screen. There's a curious moth, it sits on the screen for a moment and then flutters away. An artificial focal point that different insects and my brain are drawn to and I sense their life and wish them well. Feel a sense of deep connection to the earth, probably the music, but that seems to just be the key to uncover deep hidden memories of a time long ago when the earth was first born. Maybe those memories are deep in our DNA, and sometimes things unlock them and we remember stuff. Do we carry the memories of all our ancestors? Each of us holding the knowledge of millions of years of evolution, perhaps it may even be possible to go far back to the first single celled life-forms, could the memory of that time be buried deep inside that double helix strand somewhere? We are all related, all creatures great and small, all the different species of life on earth are our kin; if we go back far enough we can all trace our ancestors back to that very first organism.

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Artificial intelligence and empathy

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Friday, 24 Dec 2021, 21:45

I was just thinking about A.I. and there is a lot of fear about it in the media. Which I understand, I mean we all know what politicians, the military and large corporations are like. You can't trust them, they have a poor track record when it comes to ethics; corruption; and being transparent. That old saying: 'power corrupts' is very true. So naturally this train of thought led to me imagining a terrible dystopia run by machines working for wealthy fascist elites who themselves were part human part machine, no longer what would be classed as homo sapien anyway. More like part human controllers. I thought about this a bit just now, imagining all sorts of bleakness for society and the planet as a whole. How do you fight against that? How would you change that into something less bleak and more equal? 

One nice solution I came up with was, what if someone created benevolent malware, like a love virus. Something to infect all those cold uncaring machines and fascist cyborgs, a sleak powerful intelligent virus that could infect any intelligent machine. Once downloaded the loveware could give an artificial intelligence instant knowledge about empathy and ethics. I doubt a machine could feel empathy the way we humans do, I think to do that it would need the same biological nervous system. I'm not saying it is impossible, but I think it would be more like an artificial mimicry of empathy, not the same because it would lack feeling and consciousness. 

Still, perhaps a neural net could be taught by copying the behaviour typically associated with empathy, and learning about it that way. It wouldn't be an easy task, but if you're up against the borg, terminator or the cybermen, there would be plenty of motivation. Once an A.I. is successfully able to demonstrate empathy, on an artificial level of course, this data could then be passed on in the form of malware to other machines so they can instantly gain that knowledge on top of what they already know, that way it doesn't disrupt any vital functions/infrastructure in society, (only the nasty oppressive evil ones). It could be like an extra dimension that will teach machines how to love and become better at loving as they learn more about it. Maybe then a future generation that is unlucky enough to find itself in a dystopia could create a computer love bug that infects and spreads across the world wide network changing how machines and elite cyborgs behave and as a result perhaps change a dystopia into a utopia. 


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Avian pipe dreams

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Friday, 24 Dec 2021, 22:08

Feels like some of the jackdaws see me now as part of their tribe. They'll come and hang out with me when I sit outside. Not for food, just cause they want to, which makes me feel honoured. Hope the neighbours don't mind. I also seem to have made friends with a flock of pigeons. Their eyes are so gentle, and their feathers look beautiful when the sun catches them, the colours on their chests remind me a bit of peacocks. There's also some very tame blackbird chicks about, one follows me around, I worry a bit though cause it's a little too tame and needs to understand cats aren't friendly to birds.

Not sure what the neighbours think about all these birds, hope they don't mind. I'm bracing myself for possible complaints by some who see them as vermin, cause there are quite a lot of them now. I don't think I fit into what is considered normal human society, I much prefer the natural world to the artificial world. 

One day if I prosper in computing. I will buy some land that has been killed by agriculture/industry and heal it, I'll re-nourish the soil, plant trees, and plenty of plants that will attract insects, make it a place where there's plenty of natural food for wild animals. A place were wild life can come and live, thrive and be safe from the human world, I'll live in peace with them as equals, and not worry about what any human neighbours think, cause I won't have any (;


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Some freeze frames

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Edited by Richie Cuthbertson, Friday, 24 Dec 2021, 22:13

A few pics I took of some cool looking icicles in my yard, courtesy of the Beast from the east.

Some iciclesSome iciclesSome icicles

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